Thank you...
I am overwhelmed by the caring and support being given me here.I just looked back at your comments to my last entry and felt as though a multitude is walking beside me to help keep me on the path as I falter at times. It was as though this warm spot swelled in my chest and exploded through me like the best fourth of july ever. Warmth, liight, energy. A tangible feeling as though I am truly touched by all of you.
I thank you all with everything I am.
Today is my last steroid. They started the taper down process very quickly after the radio therapy was complete, 9 days to get me off completely so tomorrowI take nothing at all.
I can already feel a difference over the last four days, the drive for food is fading, the swelling in my right foot is going down and my mood is touched with melancholy. I feel vulnerable rather than a tower of power, which is actually much more relaxing.
I have spent two days doing very little beyond drifting in a semi sleep that does not make me feel more rested but is soothing somehow and I visualise all the myriad nerves in my brain stem getting room to reshape into their normal positions and starting to fire up little sparks of communication to my left side.
I have this continuing sense that my body knows what needs to be done, I am suddenly craving yogurts and whole grains, meat is suddenly unappealing and everything I feel like eating will be amazingly supportive of my digestive system. Sweet has reappeared on the menu but only in the form of honey, natural healing agent that it is.
And my current plan is to do much more nothing today and tomorrow, just rest, not even trying to think of what next and how to and what will happen Friday when they stick the needle in the back of my hand.
And I can bear in mind that I am not actually required to be happy this is going on! Neutral is a fine place to be at times!
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Also, when you are semi sleeping/semi conscious the healing process is still going on...
Positive thoughts and healing vibes always from me to you
By all means, listen to what your body and the Universe tells you to eat and/or do. You are so in touch with the natural that I am certain you can do it! Don't forget color therapy in your plan! (Definitely NO black clothes, etc.!)
Prayers and hugs sent your way,
-J
It was good to hear that you have an appetite, D. - and for such healthy foods! I like the sounds of that.
Agreed - neutral isn't a half-bad place to be sometimes. Coast for awhile, then put it in gear for the upward journey.
Jeff