The Fear of Coming Into Your Own

I titled titled this Blog the Fear of Coming Into Your Own, for many reasons. I guess the one that I write all my blogs about, my feelings, despite how random, out of place, blunt, or flat out weird they are. I always seem to be able to write them out on paper. lately I have made some pretty big choices in my life, I guess the first one is leaveing a place where I have gotten confortable, used to, and some what made it my home. I am leaveing Abilene, Tx for good, and I'm never coming back. So i leaveing and going home for a lil while to finish school, work some things out, and save some money. Its kind of funny I am not he kind of person that sets a plan of action out, any one who knows me knows I shoot from the hip. I'm random thats who I am and always have been. Now I find myself planning and moving on. I guess thats what life is all about coming into your own descovering who you are and what you are going to do in life. And for every one its different they all generally lead in the same direction just different paths. to things such as a wife, a family, a house, a career and so many other things. How we get to those things and in what amount of time............is well different for every one. Some choose some things first, some wait. But it all leads to one thing ......................and that is Makeing a life for your self that is pleasing to you, your family and friends and most of all to God.


We all have that fear inside of us, its what drives us to do things in life, to take that chance, to take that leap. Some times not knowing where it might lead. its the Fear that drives us a people to do things that we would never do, just hopeing or praying that something bigger and better is just around the bend.

I can so that fear isn't one of those things i like to talk about, for the longest time i felt if I showed fear, it meant i was weak it would leave me vernorible and even to this day i am still subborn and hard headed as i have have been( i get it from my parents lol) but i do know its that dear that drove me to do any thing i have ever done.

And i guess the fear that drives us is the same fear that is with me when I am planning on going home, leaveing this place, starting a planing to truelly being the rest of my life.

And i could Feel more Exited