Standing up
This is the time of year that love comes to surface. Ha Not for me, I think at times that love is a over rated emotion, Its so close to hate that one has to look at the big picture. I want someone to share my thoughts, my life with but of course that won't happen. Too many people have been hurt. I myself have a few issues that need to be fixed but I am glad , so very glad that I fixed the ones that mattered to me first.I had alot of fears, worries, and unanswered questions. I found that what the circle of life brings is what is for you. I can't figure if I am just one who knows what it is to be at peace with me, myself, and I. I did what it took to live untell now, with fears of walking out of the house. Driving my car to where ever. Or going to the beach to stand just above the water thinking in my head that there was a monster laying waiting for me. I faced those fears. It took alot for me to get passed things but I did. I am very glad of that. I can not ever let those to come back into my life. I was not gifted to go threw that again. lol I do know deep inside what caused them, and this is what I am working on now. Abuse thats a little word that has alot of meaning. Its hard to live this life without thoughts of this, but I do. Sometimes I wake up and think, how did I live threw this. All I can say that God was next to me threw it all, and yes he picked me up when I was about to die.
There is other ways to kill a person. One's that people do not relize, maybe they don't care. Thats a persons self, it takes alot to kill it, but it the hardest thing to get back when one takes it away. KIlls It....
Not everyone is about this. Not everyone is out to kill you. But you feel you don't have a friend in the world. I believe that is the hardess thing to live. I love great chats with people and I get deep into it. I didn't cause the wars, nor do I want to make anyone hurt. I want to live life with happiness and love. Without the words of others. Next life I am going to be a nun.
Have a good day.
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I pray and hope that God may give her the guidance and the help she needs to be in union with His Holy Will.