forgetting how to multi task
I have always been able to do more than one thing at the same time, now suddenly that too has changed and I find I have one focus at a time, and some of those for a very short time at that. Yesterday I was put on hold on a phone call and I just sat there listening to the music on hold and singing along instead of turning back to the computer and the commentary I was working on.I nearly hung up when a song I did not particularly like came on because my focus had shifted from phone call to music. This is going to be interesting if it is more than a passing phase, I am going to end up living in an eternal moment and will be endlessly happy but a total ditz to anyone who meets me or has to deal with me.
I have been thinking about pain a lot the last couple of days. Feeling it too, from the bright clean pain of the tendinitis from where I fell, to the sharp ice picks through my head that always manage to wrench an involuntary gasp or moan from me, to the dark heavy pains crawling through my gut, occasionally pausing as if to make sure I am paying attention. I am. Actually I am frequently curled up like a craven in my bed sobbing "I'll talk, I'll talk just tell me what to say!" Nerve endings play intense music and I have not yet found a way to embrace it.
I did fulfill a dream this morning. I have always admired the commentaries they used to have on the BBC by Richard Dimbleby and his ilk and today MY first commentary was aired on BBS at 7:30 a.m. so it will catch the weather audience. It will be a weekly event, just my thoughts or views on whatever struck me as portentous or socially significant. Nothing overtly political and always short, sweet with a touch of what I consider wry humour.
Oh this is great! I am using Firefox instead of IE today and it is spell correcting!~ Gotta love technology!
Comments (3)
What a great achievement for you to have got the show together with all this going on - and keeping a sense of humour too
Im off to have a look at Firefox
"...dark heavy pains crawling through my gut, occasionally pausing as if to make sure I am paying attention. I am."
I started using Firefox recently myself, and love that spell-correction feature, too! Saves SOME annoying mistakes.
Hang in there, girlfriend!
Love,
Jeff