My Feelings

I lost my husband 5 months ago. We were married for 31 years.For the last 10 years i devoted myself to him he was very sick and i did nothing but take care of him. And please dont get me wrong i would do it all over again .He was the greatest love i have ever know. But you know he died and i am still alive and i am so tired of people telling me how i feel or your noy ready for this or that. But you know for the first time in 10 years i feel so free and full of live. I have so much love and passion and careing in me and i just want to let it all out and feel useful again.But i am always told i am not ready. What i would like to know is how someone else can tell me how i am feeling. Just because when i do something i put my all into it. I just got tired of the wall i put around myself to keep how all the pain and anger i had.Now i am tearing it down and i get told you are not ready for this or that. But i am. I want to go on with life and that is what my husband wanted for me also. So if people cant understand that then it is just to bad.comfort handshake
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Donna, I am sorry to read of your husbands passing and I hold only respect and awe for those that stand by their loved ones during the terrible time of their illness. It is heartwarming. As to your conflict with other voices, well, you sound pretty healthy to me. One can honor their love forever and yet still move forward in their life as well.
Sorry for your loss....Sometimes people think they know us better than we know ourselves or think we need them to take care of us....By the sounds of it you must have dealt with what the outcome of your husbands illness was going to be and probably discussed what the future would hold for you also....Moving ahead does not mean you have forgotten him or stopped loving him--that is my advice I would give to those that judge you and tell them it is your turn to live again..Best Wishes to you and your future-may you find the happiness you are looking for....handshake
My condolences on the loss of your husband.
Certainly it would be wise to take things slowly,
but only you truly know when you are ready.
You're never going to be ready, if you don't try at some point.
So, welcome aboard and best of luck to you ! peace
hi donnalou,verey sorry to learn of your loss,i lost my own partner 10years ago,the greiving process is uniquly personl an individual to us all, i wont go into it, it wasent easy to get to felling as you say free and alive agin, ,rember though they are gone physically, thier love lies, in and lives in our hearts and minds forever, so as we live they still live too,,and we still have a life to furfill here and now,warmest greetings and wishing all the happniess that 0009 can bring YOU AND YOUR FAMILY MARTIN 212 DUBLIN IRELANDteddybear angel
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