I have so much time

I am feeling the sting of life. I do not want to sound pessimistic but life can be really hard when you have to do things you don't want to do. Like teaching. I have been a teacher for five years in combination. I did not like teaching. Many times I tried to get out but I fell sick and this set me backmore than iI would have liked. Now I am unemployed and jobs are so hard to find. I would like a job other than a teaching job but nothing is coming my way. So I dropped in some teachers application forms to some schools. This time I am trying the primary level. I taught the secondary level previously. Maybe I will like it is I try a different level.I want to be optimistic about the state of things...but life really is a b*tch.
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Too much time, hmmmm I don t want to sound sarcastic, but I happen to have too much time as well. Having ms has given me so much time to not be able to do things I used to do. What I wont do to throw away my cane and go back to work, or go for a walk.I figure if a persons got too much time ,do something with it, once its gone , you never get it back.
Hi 1to1, I am sorry you have ms. I am still young and at 32 I can't live my life without working. So despite my illness I have to work.
I envy you. You are a teacher and you taught at the secondary level that mean you are brilliant and have a trained mind too.
Girl give thanks for where you are. You hate teaching so do not go back there.
Last year at this time I was utterly depressed and frustrated. Everything was going wrong. I just said I have spent three years writing applications with no result so I will not lose anything if I devote the rest of the year writing.
I am giving the finishing touches to my sixth and seventh books and plan to spend the rest of this year promoting and advertising. I did self publish but the feed back I got from those who bought copies are positive.
There are a lot of spill off from the books and right now I have about ten persons awaiting to pursue the crazy spill off ideas with me.
I do not think you have too much time I think you are not using up the time you have.
A thought just occurred to me to share with you some lines I posted on poets corner some time ago. I hope you do not


My Passing Thoughts
Author: prenge
Two thoughts per minute not as many as I sometimes think
They do not stop or even leave a trace behind
Good bad indifferent they do not care
Influenced by time, events even sometime the atmosphere
Not bothering to follow order, pattern or even sequence

One hundred and twenty thoughts per hour there's something here
Please someone create a filter, I can't let all disappear
They can't be all bad seeing they originate in me
They surely won't come my way again I have no certainty
Who can tell if a thought mulled over may not just become an idea

Three thousand thoughts per day should they all go to waste
Surely they should be stored and examined another time and place
Who can measure the power the human mind releases when stirred
Seeing what it can conceive it can also achieve
An idea cherished long enough can become a burning passion or desire

Ninety thousand thoughts occurring in a month cannot be all bad
Oh that there was someone to arrest me for the thoughts I murder
Who can tell the loss this world has known and been denied
Thoughts and ideas killed by me in their infancy
and I walk free knowing the I robbed the world some benefits

One million thoughts each year and counting with space for more
Going to waste in the age of technology and advance knowledge
I can dream and conceptualize but how can I capture
Waster that I am yet thinking I use what I have
Thoughts going their way because I know others will come along

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Posted: Thu Mar 29, 2012 1:18 PM

About this poem:
reflecting how I do not act upon some of the ideas I have
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Everything works out, it does hug and I believe everything happens for a reason, and only good stuffing will happen for you, I believe that, so enjoy your time, cuz im sure everything will fall into place soon teddybear
Hi prenge,good you spend you time writing. Boy I would love not to go back into teach but jobs are hard to find especially for my qualifications. I have a degree in geography and biology. Most people are looking for business subjects.
Hi butterflies,thanks. I really hope so.I can't wait for things to fall into place.
Hi bungallow,hope you are having a good day.
I spend 15 years of my life in a job I didn't like. It was not wasted as it supplied me with money to be able to afford a house of my own and to do the things I like when I was not working. sad flower
Hi ekself,was it a mental task for you going to work each day and you did not like it?
Hi Thondae
You don't like teaching? I loved teaching. I actually took a big drop in salary when I switched to teaching. I taught secondary level for one year and it was about as close to hell as you could get. It was a year I wished away just to get back to my regular post. Teaching at tertiary lever is much better. Still not humans, as the closest semblance a student has to a human is the footprint he leaves, laugh but much more responsibility that a schoolkid.
I love teaching but I am not good at it,, I have tried young fellas wont stop laughing,,, so I gave up,, if I say something they laugh and then I start laughing. Yeah life is exactly what you said grin grin
Is there another Ioto in the other blog itos pic is there and not here I am confused
So what are you doing to improve your life and be more happy in yourself?

You have time on your hands, this might be the opportunity to get back to education and study something which really interests you.

If you want to change something in your life which you don't like, get off your bum and do it. Moaning doesn't get you anywhere other than turning people away from you. wine
@ knen,I would love to go back to school and do something different but the money is just not there for me to make a move to do anything.
@wht,I did karate when I was young. To teach hand to hand combat here would not work. People would just not be interested.
@cat,I taught secondary close to five years and it was so hard. Now I am applying for the primary level and hope I can handle it....I can't teach Tertiary because I don't have a masters in the subject I want to teach in.I am training my mind to like teaching.
ok, then wedding cake baking and decorating if you have your own kitchen.
look online for a free course.

or start a home aerobics class, if you have your own house.

if you dont have your own house and kitchen, then maybe look after old people who need a carer. or be a nanny or au pair for children.

just advertise freelance.
here another idea. design some drawing paintings in a graphics programm. can download one. then see if you can get them printed onto plain shirts.
ok, dont know if your come out with profit, but its an idea.
But, yes, know what you mean, the environment may not be right.

I have the same problem, well, its a huge hole Im in. been trying to get out for 5 years now, just cant.

they engineer you in a small town, like prison guards do to prisoners on Alcatraz.

everything you try or do, they stop you straight away.
There only 3 or so big business people here, and the a few shops.

And the minute you try do something, its a huge uproar etc.
and when you try be secretive, cause of it, then the cops are on your a.. so blimming quick.

its just huge gossip etc. so you get engineered in a way, that you believe that, its just the way it is, and you are breaking the law, or not allowed to do anything, and you must try apply for unemployment grant or something.

ye, police have and people with power have a way keeping it like that in small towns.
Atleast you get unemployment grant. In these small Caribbean islands you get nothing. Life can be so hard wht,but we still need to keep the positive vibe and keep smiling.
Hi wht,thanks so much for the ideas. I am thinking to work for a bit even if it is teaching and raise some money and then see if I can branch off into something else...let us see what happens. I know things ruff with you as well. It is the sabotage don't you think?
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