My mother has narcissistic personality disorder, and I am sick of the small community I live in turning their backs to the obvious elephant in the room.
They've seen how she can be, yet they do nothing. They call her Sister in church because she acts so nice with little children, yet I know people who saw how horrible she was to her coworkers when she worked at the hospital/senior citizens center as a CNA. I have no idea if she was mean to the tenants or not, but it shames me to see her act the way she does outside our home.
I already know how my mother is, why can't others see it? The very few who have seen her real side end up running for the hills. I wish I could just do that. Yet... she is the payee of my disability benefits. How can I run when she's basically in charge of my money? How can I run when the woman who left me outside on a deck for three hours while going 52 miles away to get groceries... raised me? I can't find any support groups anywhere near here for emotionally abused black sheep children of narcissistic mothers and enabling fathers...
Luckily, I have a biological family in Utah who accept me for who I am and understand my situation. But they still think my parents are nice people who just don't know how to deal with me. Argh, it's so frustrating!
I was always, always, always taught in church that family is the most important thing, but what about family that constantly treats you like crap and convinced you that you are? What about family who don't give a rat's a** about how you feel and use your secrets as weapons against you?
Ugh, I'm sorry. I just had to rant somewhere because nobody here listens.