Funny ("Odd") Postion...
I had this early challenge in my life. My Daddy had lost his bearing in the world. Understandable, really, given what he'd faced, the challenges in his young life. They carried over into mine and we were at odds, despite the fact that I loved him more than I loved my own life. He misperceived what I did and said for many years and it was a great row (conflict). Eventually, he understood that I'd do anything for him -- if he would but ask rather than demand. I do not knuckle under to demands -- ever. I am extremely manipulable if you know where the buttons are. All one need say is "Cailin, it would please me if you'd..." Reasoning too works and, failing that, begging and pleading too are effective.Anyway, looking back, I find myself at a peculiar juncture. The most, perhaps the only, worthwhile thing I have done in my life was serving to reorient Daddy: to bring him back to his heart -- to love and to see that what love asks, lovingly, is delivered, for what the Beloved longs to do is but to please. Daddy was my Dad, but he was also like a brother and we certainly were friends. Now, at 55, I am looking back and thinking it has all been worthwhile just for the sake of what was real between me and Daddy. I'm pleased, but I am wondering what might be the point of this longevity I never thought I would enjoy. Obviously, there must be a point and I abide, waiting to be of some further use and purpose.
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I just was talking about you yesterday! To somebody.
I am sorry to here this/ Your dad....................
CailinCallaghan
No worries Jarred. Daddy has been gone a long while. But our friendship/"romance" (because it was a love story, just not really "romantic") made this whole sheebang worthwhile. Nice to see you are well!
Thanks Virgo, I'm well, just reflecting... I did the hardest and most worthwhile stuff as a little kid. Now I'm crusin'... I live my life, poised on the brink of purpose revealed, waiting for the laughter I am sure will render it all a rewarding "screamer" of a jest.
Hiya, Angel. Talkin' 'bout me behind my back... AGAIN!
Know who I miss and wonder about: Nonsmoker and Daytona Dude. I worry about both of them. (Stupid, I know, but that's me. Where DID they go...?)
Thanks, Mimi... For posting that. They don't seem to want to post my youtube anymore.
You just need to remove the 's' if you have one on the 'https'
I haven't heard from NonSmok.!
You haven't heard about Daytondude? If you haven't.
I will let someone else tell you....
I though you knew it!
They posted it, in the blogs and forums.
PS: I am sorry!
Sending hugs to you
Nice to hear from you...it has been ages...I haven't heard from non for a long time...hopefully he will eventually turn up...too bad about Daytona...
I too had a very loving unconditional understanding with my Dad.
He is passed 17 years now and there isn't a day that passes that I wish he was here.
It is great to see you back; you have been gone for too long. As usually, a touching and thought provoking blog.
On Daddy, He was a passionate man, lost his temper often, but had not a mean bone in his body. He was always contrite when he had been wrong. He so mellowed with age.
Grand to see you! I'm concerned about Non. Haven't seen him in so long and I'm hoping he's alright.