Changing your way of life!

Today was my first day of Day Watch, I have worked the last seven years on Night Watch. I told them I would rather work straight through from the beginning of Night Watch to the end of Day Watch then have it off. So I worked from 10 pm last night to after 2 pm today. If I would have taken it off, it would have split my 2 days off into one day here and one day there. I am the type if I am going to have time off, I like to have more then one day.

One day is usually to recoup your energy and to get things done that you could not while working. The next day is a day to enjoy and pamper yourself, yes a selfish one day dedicated to the person we should love the most, ourselves. Seldom do we, we are generally too busy doing for others.

I spent a lifetime of doing for others and care for others, forgetting there was a me. When you do for others, you push the emotions, the restlessness, the aches and pains to the side. Actually you don't really feel them, because there is never any down time to feel them. Then one day you feel it all and wonder how you made it so long, but you keep pushing yourself until the ones you cared for are there no longer. That is the day, you look back and say I did what I had to do now it is time for me. Yes, that is the day that you really start to feel all the abuse you put on your body through.

I changed my Watch to give my body time and the rest needed to heal. I want to know what it feels like to be on a regular day time schedule. I want to readjust my internal time clock to prepare for the future. I think the change of schedule will easy the stress of everyday life in general and give me a home life again.