so confused

I like knowing what I'll be doing and feeling tomorrow, and in a week's time and, unless the universe has other plans, in a year. Very soothing. Being single means you can plan your short and long term goals and have a sense of serene purpose.

Being involved with someone's else's agenda changes all that.

Is it normal to half-wish it would end abruptly in some utterly painless way (ideally he'd announce he's becoming a priest, or going back to a previous relationship which will, of course, ultimately make him as miserable as hell) so I can get back on track?

Having one of THOSE days. Very unsettling.

Hugs all round.
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I liked sharing my life with someone and we took each other into account, but I never felt restricted or restricted himself.

Can it be a state of mind or habit? If agendas are imcompatible, then it mightn't work.

Hugs and hope your day gets better. hug
Thanks KN! hug agendas have to be aligned, for sure
Hi Viv, perhaps a retail therapy might help to defray those nerves? wink

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Hi KNenagh reunion hug bouquet
Best of luck with it Vivian, after all having someone in your life should add to happiness. hug

I like the idea of some retail therapy.
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Hiya Mimi, hug hope all is well. Had some good news this week. wink

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Oooohhhhhhh!!!! I'd love to hear all about it when you have the time, KNenagh love love love

Please send me a pm? Also, I need to ask you about something....conversing
Retail therapy is just what I need. Chocolate ice-cream is the greatest invention of all time. super super super super
Know that feeling. Considering allowing someone into my life again but not so sure it is a good idea. The pictures in our heads about our future are definitely not the same. Am I selfish to decided it is my dream he can share if he wants to and not his dream I have to share in order for him to be happy. It is basically the same dream but also completely different so suspect this kite is not going to fly....as usual.
Viv!!! I had just that yesterday!!

The yummiest of the yummy! love love love

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wave Heyyy! Lee.
I wouldn't mind knowing what will happen next week. Each week in my lifr. Reasoning said! It might help me to know how to prevent somethings from happening in my life.
Hi Viv

I've had a similar day. He was supposed to come for 1pm today and I was to make a meal. He didn't want it then and wanted me to make it tonight.

I was up at 7am, he was up at 10am. He was making a full English Breakfast at his place. I was having cereal at mine.

He won't be hungry at 1pm and I will be.

I told him not bother coming.

Yesterday's plan changed by 11am today.

I went out with the girls instead.

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Sorry, I don't know what the answer is. Perhaps if our worlds revolved around only them then all would fall into place. Don't do it!

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DC, I have eaten so much, if I leaned forward right now food would shoot out of my ears. But that photo still looks good!
Crazy, I'm confused, I thought you were in something right now?

conversing
Angel, I like to know what is happening every minute of my life - I have drafted a plan up to about age 89. I accept things may change. But I like to have a plan anyway rolling on the floor laughing

(Not OCD at ALL. Just - prepared)
It is all compromise. I want to go to the gun show, she wants to go the sculpture exhibit 90 miles in the other direction.. So you can fight and each go your own way, or you can work out a busy schedule for the day, together.
You are suffering from the "I want but I dont want" syndrome

You want to remain in your comfortable bubble of singularity and all that that entails... yet there are times you miss the company, the closeness, the touch, the romance. Unfortunately to get these means making an effort and leaving your comfort zone.
After all that I am sure he is hoping the same of you. As it seems you have no idea what it is to be in a relationship. You should do both of you a favor and leave him. You sound like you would be better off single.
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