"IN THE LIVING YEARS"
It Is A Well Known Fact That The People That Fought World War 2Was..The Greatest Generation
And Also.... The Last Of The Cruel Generation
And That Era Of That Generation...Ended In The Mid 60s
But ..That Generation... Can Be Known As..The Last Generation..Also
Why Do I Say This?
You Could Beat The Hell Out Of Your Kids If They Stepped Out Of Line(And No One Would Say Or Do Anything About It)(And I Had Marks On My Body From Where The Strap Hit Me..Weeks After It Happened)
Back Then..Most Children Feared Their Fathers(Than Loving Them)
I Know..I Was One
Today..If This Sort Of Thing Were To Happen..The "Abuser"..Gets Hauled Off To Jail..And The Poor Kid Or Kids... Gets Punished Worst... By Being Taken Away And Having To Live With Strangers
(Even Though These Strangers Are Nice To Them...It Does More Harm..Mentally)
As I Got Older(10 Yrs Old)..Even If What I Did Was An Accident..Id get The Strap
And That lead To Running Away..Being caught By The Cops..And Taken Back To My Parents House...Yep..And You Guessed It...More of The Strap From My Father
Then..At 18..I left And Lived On My Own
I Hardly Saw My Parents through All Those Living Years
But Now I Wished That I Had
But Not For What You Think
I Would Have Loved To Stand In Front Of My Father When he Was Getting Older And Weaker...And I Was growing Stronger..And Say To Him
"You Forgot One Thing Dear Father"
"You Failed To Realize That "Little Boys Grow Up To Be Men"
"Id Like You To Try To Beat The Hell Out Of Me Now"
(But..For The Last 20 Years..I Never Saw Him Or Knew Him)
(And Hes Passed On)
(I Have No Sorrow For This Man Whatsoever)
(And All Im left With..... Is The Hurtful Sad Memories That Accumulated ).."In The Living Years"........................
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I Am Haunted By The Past
Its Always There
And Always Will Be
And Im Sure..As The Good memories We All Have Stay With Us
The Bad Ones Do Also
But Theres still..And Always Will Be
"The Little Child Inside The Man"...............
Some people say talking methods help. Not for me I think of my brain as in folders, loads of folders. When I am done with something it is popped in correct folder. When something I cannot resolve or put right, it goes into locked box and lock is thrown away.
Only way I personally can cope with life and oh my rose coloured specs
I saw a lot of what you were describing growing up. Fortunately I had a father who was very good to his family but strict!
Maybe the scars that you have will never heal. For your sake, I hope they will!
Take care my friend!
And as long as you hold onto the bad memories...
he is still beating....
Only you can stop it now...
You need to be a better person than he
was.....
I Am A better Person Than he Was
Never Once Did i Strke My Son..Never
Theres No such thing As being Able To forget Something
Once Its There In Your head
It remains Forever....................
my favorite quotes "forgive don't forget" "God gave his most difficult struggles to his strongest soldiers" "Challenges throughout our life, make us stronger not weaker"
Can Go Right Out The Window..............
But we just can't.