The O.I. Saga Ch. 4: Can You Feel the Love Tonight

So I'm sure alot of you know what I'm on this site for. It's the very same reason that alot of you are on here for. To look for a little something call, "love." I'd play some sappy music on the world's smallest violin right about now, but I don't have it on me. Oh well. :P

But yeah, so I'm a 20 year old man, who hasn't seen a single date in his entire life. Kinda sad, I know. :P And seeing as how that "getting more independence" thing hasn't gotten rolling yet, I've turned to the wonderful world of the internet, to try to get into the dating scene, where I eventually came across this site. Sadly though, my efforts to try to find someone to talk to on here have been unsuccessful, usually with the outcome being, nobody responding to my messages, or I'd get maybe, two responses from someone at most, and then they disappear from the site forever. (Seriously, I notice not alot of people stick around for long on here. What's up with that?)

This is one of the bigger voids I've been having, on top of the whole, "not being able to do much on my own" thing. I consider myself to be mostly a happy guy. I like chatting with my online friends, playing some games with them, I usually make alot of jokes half the time, I'm almost always coming up with ideas for stories, and videos. (I have a YouTube channel, so that's why I come up with ideas for videos.) The stuff I do is for the most part really fun and enjoyable. And yet...I feel like it'd be nice to have someone to share that with. And being boxed in my home isn't really helping that at all.

Even the few moments where I do get out of the house, I still feel boxed in, since the only way my wheel chair can move, is if somebody else is pushing it. So even when I'm out in the world, where all the action is, I still don't have alot of freedom to go anywhere. I sorta have to go where the wind takes me, so to speak.

This sorta circles back around to the main topic of this post. My lack of dating experience. Gather around boys & girls, cause it's story time! :P So one day, my family and I were eating at Red Robin, one of my favorite restaurants, when we get a couple of waitresses to do what waitresses normally do. One of the waitresses caught my eye, and I got a feeling inside me that I haven't felt in like....years. No, it wasn't a boner. I can see you weirdos about to type that in the comments. Put those keyboards away, and let me finish :P It's hard to explain, as I'm sure it usually is with this sorta topic. All I know, is that I thought she was incredibly beautiful, and that something inside me wanted me to get to know her more.

So what would a normal person do in this situation? Well once you got over the "Crushing on that one girl in highschool from the otherside of the locker room" phase, you work up the courage to try and ask her out, right? There was just one teeny tiny problem that was standing in the way of this particular pla- I HAD MY MOM, MY SISTER, HER BOYFRIEND, AND MY NIECE AND NEPHEW LITERALLY ALL AROUND ME! Rule #1! When there's a pretty girl you wanna talk to, the last thing you want is to have your MOM right there next to you, while you try to ask her out! Not fun. XD And that was that. I never even got a chance to talk to her, and much disappointment was felt that day. That was actually what finally drove me into writing that first blog post I wrote a few months back, cause that was the point where I finally figured out why I was feeling so down in the dumps for awhile, and I just needed a way to talk to someone about it.

That's one good thing that's come out of this site for me. This blogging thing has actually helped ease my mind quite a bit throughout all of this. It kinda has been like my own self therapy. :P Anyway, I just kinda wanted to speak out my mind a little bit today. Thanks for reading everybody. :)