Ambivalence
I struggle with the notion of being in a "serious" relationship. I am a person who needs alone time and a fair amount of it. Albert Einstein recognized that creativity can not flourish in an environment of constant external stimulation. And I am nothing if not a creative type.The last relationship I was in, we were both people who needed alone time as well as deep connection time. Problem was, he wanted alone time when I wanted connection time, and vice versa. It felt like a constant battle of wills. So, can one find a partner who is similar in their emotional needs as well as in the timing of those needs? I have no idea.
I am working in an environment now where I get as much social interaction as I could possibly need, but lately (maybe 6 weeks or so), because of the particular personalities of the people who have been staying here, I feel like I have socialitis... serious overload. I hide out in my sanctuary and that keeps me sane, but it's not like having a place to myself. Someone is always just around the corner, so to speak, and if they catch me, I get to hear another hour long story about their lives.
So, finally, it looks like I will get a few days to do whatever I please. I am rapidly feeling a sensation of bliss.
I feel bad for people who have expectations of me. I'm not able to meet those expectations and I'm afraid I'm pissing some folks off.
Any commiseration is greatly appreciated.
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I love that you do the cave no shave thing. lol I like to sometimes even skip a day showering. I'm saving up for a nice long bubble bath tonight as a matter of fact.
House to myself.....*tears of joy
I do know people that don't know what they want besides their next meal - they do drive me bonkers and I keep away from them.
As much as I enjoy spending time with my beloved ones, I too need the ME time. I think every one does..
Hey new photo? Oh you look really lovely!
As regards relationships, I too need space, a lot of it, but any relationship needs compromise. I guess when one is comprimising too much of oneself, then it can become a negative and draining experience.
Enjoy your days of bliss.