An epiphany

Don't you just love that word? I do...but just don't get to use it enough.

Someone I love, very much, is going through a difficult time dealing with issues concerning a very personal subject. Because I love him so much and actually share his pain, I so want to help him through this. I agonize over this with him; when he's sad, I'm sad. It breaks my heart...I want to make it better, but the fact is, I can't. This is where the epiphany comes in. I was on break today at work, standing outside, thinking about the situation. Something he said hit me like a ton of bricks. I put myself in his shoes....if it were me in his situation...no way could anybody ever know the extent of that pain...not even the one who loves me most. I understand that now. I understand that what I feel is the helpless feeling one gets when they can't make it better for the one they love. I can only be here...support him; hold him when he's sad and listen to him when he needs to talk. I can't take the pain away. I can't make it better. It will NEVER be better until the issue is resolved. Nothing I do and nothing I say will make it better, and that...one statement...makes me sad. When you want to be everything I find out you can't be everything...it's humbling...and it's sad...but that is life.