You know who your friends are

Ever get tired of the same old bullshit from people who could care less about you
and perhaps have no incentive to change or constantly depressed or sick of their
life and the choices they made?

Ever get tired of offering suggestions to help people who seem to embrace their misery?

Ever get tired of beating yourself up seeking approval from those you approve of
yet they just don't reciprocate?

Ever get tired of the drama of others?

Ever get tired of stupid mundane sometimes pointless forums or blogs seeing that most people
just have nothing else on their plate to offer?

Are we not tired of being surrounded and very much alone?

Tired of being tired? Thinking that sleeping it off will make it go away
only to find the pain is still there?

Its really sad indeed because no matter how polite we may act or the noble intentions to
offer some solace there is this void of apathy and it drains the energy from us.

People who are constantly depressed drain the energy of those who seemingly are doing fine.
Depression kills and destroys all that is good in anyone. Where does it come from why are people so miserable.
Why do we tend to attract the very thing we despise in others. Perhaps because those who are equally miserable
who do not want to face their issues attract others who do not want to face theirs. Hence they have something in common.

What is sad is having mental illness and depression or physical ailments and seeking others with similar
issues is not an ideal match.
If two are in darkness how can they see themselves to the light?
People in general have their good points and pitiful points and trying to focus on their good points and their potential of greatness is the best we can offer one another but if people only focus on how miserable they are
it actually repels the healing they seek.

I know I am not the sharpest pencil in the box or the brightest bulb but, its so disheartening to see the same old story of people we may care about watching them on a path of self destruction.
When it comes to the 3 kinds of people out there Perpetrators Victims and Rescuers its time to consider the real perpetrators people have such as fear, doubt, lack of confidence, emotional or physical illnesses, anger, hopelessness. These things in my opinion are the worse enemies we have and often sabotage our ambition to find friends and healthy relationships. As far as being a victim many have choices to be one to the perpetrators that rob us of life. Ah then the rescuer which claims they have overcome the perpetrator and profess they are no longer a victim.

How I hate despise this because those who claim they have overcome the role of victim of self made monsters their testimony is a reminder of we have the power to change. Yet how often do you give away that power to the victim and perpetrator?

So, in knowing who our friends really are it those three which are constant reminders of our perceive guilt because we can't measure up to one another.

A woman will always think the grass is greener elsewhere and will always consider their options.
A man may do the same but with a twist because deep down inside no matter how much people
profess they don't need anyone nor want anyone maybe they just gave up on everyone.

Yet they find their comfort zone in their sickness they won't tell you about. They won't tell you how alone they feel or how unhappy they are.
The mask we wear defines only how well we are able to hide our pain.
One day we will have to take off the mask and face our real selves our pain our regrets and declare our passions that we want to live and love and play to be happy and to be needed and wanted and be fruitful
and be human as God intended us to be.
Overall we will have to decide who are friends are and who we wish to let go or hold onto for the new year.