Reflections Of My life
I have done a lot of thinking of late. Thinking about what might have been, what could have been, what has been and what has not been. For some things there is still time while for others, I fear, it is too late. Mercifully those are few. I have done most of what I wanted to do. Yes, I had my ups and my downs but the average line was always above the line.
Regrets there are only a few too. There are a few things that I should have done differently, but I’m happy with my life as it is.
Maybe it is because I never had any unrealistic dreams. I was often accused of having no ambition and that I don’t fulfill my potential but I’d rather build on what I am than to chase unreachable goals. I was blessed with so many talents. Some said I must become a writer and other said I must become an artist. My parents wanted me to become a preacher. Everybody had different plans for me. I disappointed them all and I’m not apologizing for that. I did what I wanted to do.
I have always been the champion of the underdog. Somebody once said it is because I’m a loser. Yet I never felt like a loser. I’d rather help the loser back to his feet before I cheer the winner. There is no disgrace in losing. I’d rather lose fairly than win by cheating. Such would be a hollow victory. You cannot bullshit yourself. If somebody defeats me by cheating I feel great because that is an admission by him that I’m better, stronger or smarter than him. Why else would he cheat?
More than all, I’m at peace with myself and I bear no grudges. I may retaliate when somebody does me wrong but I forget about it as soon as now. I cut my losses and get on with my life. I don’t hate anybody or anything; hate consumes you until you are just an empty shell. If somebody wants to hate me, it is his unhappiness. It cannot interfere with mine.
Yes, there are still a few things I still plan to do. And I’ll do it for they are all reachable. I’m not going to start chasing the end of the rainbow now. Achieving a goal has always been an anticlimax to me. The process of getting there is what brings me satisfaction.
May this be a joyful day to you all.
Comments (88)
Take care...don´t waste any life yet
Don't read to much in it. It was birthday wishes; nothing more.There was no sweet talk, if you know what I mean.
I think you can say that..
You sound like you need to go to the beach and breathe in some iodium from the sea
Glad that you had a good time at your party and to hear that my comment "lessened your headache" or hangover in this case.
Some people are really causing me a headache just by hearing them talking and, without having any drinks and prior to listening to them was just absolutely fine with no headache whatsoever
In any case, I bounce back in no time
To raise the vibration, and energy of this blog and to keep it on a positive and good note.
It has taken me some time to choose the flowers and steak from all flowers and steaks available to send for your birthday but, all time spent was really worthy it.
Extremely glad to read that "you loved my comment".
And I love your blog (brain) tests and once again, looking forward to the next one!
Keep up the good spirit!
Thank heavens it is all over. It was a mistake to have all three functions in one weekend. I could not go to sea today. It was the family lunch and the last guess (my favorite cousin) only left a half hour ago. I think we will get some normality again.
I had a bad hangover yesterday but that was only because my friends 'spiked my drinks and shook them up a bit on my party on Friday night.. I had nothing to drink at my sisters's birthday party yesterday and at the family lunch today I only had a glass of wine with lunch. So I'm fine again. So I can honestly declare that I have no hangover.