GOD, GOD, GOD.....

Well, perhaps realy GODESS, NO? Although I respect others' need for and comfort from the many organized religions, RC Deranged male homosexuals' toying with us during altar boy years, and the challenging life-long sequelae of such, seem to have cured me of any hankering toward such. But I still regularly visit places of worship of all sorts (last was the Lovely mosque and community nearby in our state university town), in a regrettable, but very human need for fellowship in the context of deep spirituality. But my concept of the Godhead is really quite different from what is typically pushed on the faithful, often by unctuous preacher types, who never seem to miss a meal. As a scientist, with pan interests in the crafts, when I consider, er ponder, the function of reality about and inside us, from string theory to dark energy, I feel forced to use the finely tuned meshing of it all to form a kind of scientific spiritual belief system. Just the fact that we seem to exist midway between Planck dimensions on both ends of it all completely blow me over. I simply just can't buy it, that without a directing, or at least initiating, greater force or intelligence, likely completely incomprehensible to our ken and levels of insights, (even allowing my run on sentences), things simply fall together on their own. Just a little too tight for me, this universe (es), even when it seems not to work 100%. When some species goes extinct, or cancer appears, is it really ever not part of its perfect plans? There, finally got it out and off my chest. V-Aa.