I am who I am. I have to do this with this body and this spirit.

I am who I am. I have to do this with this body and this spirit. This is all I have. I can not trade anymore. This is apparently exactly as I should be; without me, as I am at the moment, the creation was not complete. I keep blaming myself for things I can not (yet) do. I do not have to be perfect. I do not have to be able to do what I can not do. Perfection is stagnation and stagnation is dead. I live so I make mistakes. I can also make mistakes. I learn from mistakes. In fact, I am perfectly correct because I make the mistakes I make! This is how I keep the evolution going.
I get exactly what I need. Everything helps me to fulfill my mission on earth - including the setbacks and the disease, the enemies and quarrels, the lost loves and the broken hearts. If I do not see that now, I will be able to see it later. I realize at every difficult moment that everything could have been much worse. I only need to be completely honest with myself. Sometimes I have to deal selectively with the truth. Total honesty towards other people is not always loving, on the contrary. And sometimes I have to protect myself, that is the way it is in this world. If I do not lie to myself; if I know what I do and why.I can never please the whole world. What one finds good, the other finds useless. There will always be someone who criticizes me; there will always be someone who admires me. I just have to do what I feel I have to do. I keep my attention in the now. Old cows hear in the ditch. Everything happened because it had to happen, there is no point in worrying about it. Faint fantasies about the future also waste energy. NOW is by far the most fascinating, interesting moment of my life, because only NOW really happens, in flesh and blood, what happens! Use my memory and dig up useful memories, but I will not whine.