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First of all big thanks to those who have expressed some understanding and sympathy regarding the kind of person I am. It is true, it's hard for me to feel that I fit in anywhere, and as rightly pointed out artists are a funny sort who don't always get the "normal" ways. Many of us try and try but end up exhausting ourselves and feeling irredeemably different.
I had a really hard time last week after the rejection that I experienced. It took me by surprise, it was a knife in my back. I tried to divert attention from it by being active here and simply having some fun. I certainly meant no harm but some of my jokes were clumsy and for that I apologize. I did however experience rejection here as well and it was simply too much for me. I did ask Guiri on one of the thread whether I had bothered him too much but he said it was okay. Thus his reaction on the thread I had started about him came as a total surprise to me. I just couldn't handle it anymore as I felt that several men were joining up against me. Perhaps a woman who appears tough is threatening, dunno. I'm tough in some ways but in some ways I'm not, and my sensitivity is certainly an issue. I also want to have fun for real and though I feel that I'm doing fairly well in the English language it's not always easy. Let's say, it's not easy for me as a person nor in a foreign language. To all those who didn't get my attempts at being funny; I'm sorry you perceived it all as something negative. Perhaps it helps to understand that I was also going through inner turmoil because of the 100th rejection this year.
I was not trying to come onto Guiri, and in retrospect I know I should have listened to my guts. I was merely trying to do what most seem to be doing here and jokes about gender issues certainly seem to flourish.
I won't be as active as I was, that's for sure. I truly wasn't going to come back at all. However while at first I only saw rather sour comments about me (well mostly) now that I've seen some nice ones I just don't feel okay with just reading but having my hands tied. Let's just see. You're an interesting bunch and I had many fun moments here.