A New out Look on things and a more positive me:) ( Archived) (2)

whad up C.S.


I just got done reading a few things on the internet and the topic was "People holding Grudges" And I found it kinda surreal being honest.. b/c it made me think of my situations.. And I was like thinkin 2 myself.. Well If I can honestly sit up here and Admitt my wrongs and I apologize about things to this woman.. And She still doesn't wanna be like myself meaning "trying to make the first step" by apologizing then I guess you can call that a "Grudge." and My thing is I guess I kinda feel bad.. B/c I stopped calling and checkin on my kids.. For the simply fact of the reason.. Me not really trusting her... And it was just like a "Burnout" on me.. And perhaps it would give her sometime and space that she needs. To see the point that I was their and I did and still do love my kids nothing will ever change that.. But it's like.. I found myself getting Frustrated @ her b/c it's like everything i said in a calm way and tried to talk to her about.. it's just turned into an argument.. So i just said for now I'm going to focus on me... And believe it or not I guess I feel more @ easy when I don't talk to her. I mean sometimes yeah i wanna call.. But it's like she gets "under my skin" with her comments that she thinks is cute.. They always say "Absences make the heart Fonder" Well in this case In my Sceniro "Absences make the heart more Managiable.." So yeah back to the question. Whats really the point in holding "Gruges?" Esp when a person has said their sorry and they admitted ther faults.. But you have the other one who can't even begin to say "I'm sorry" or
"I did wrong." Another way I look @ it is... You can hold a grudge inside for so long against a person to where when that person just shuts you out in their mind.. It starts to take a toll on you.. And who wants to hold a grudge against the person if they have admitted their mistakes? ONE word for that is SELFISH and HIGH PRIDE:) Just my thought.. Comments please:)