I'm back with a new name (10)

Firstly its been a long while since I was here .Secondly I did leave rather oddly and I cant think of my old name lmao(I am using the same picture). I must apologise for leaving as abrutly as I did .
Looking back perhaps everything got to me from trying to date to family life .Not that I'm back into dating. Rather I've come to understand that dating is so much harder than I had ever thought .Which looking back was the major reason I left dating sites.So many disapointments that in the end I gave up!!
Of course leaving this site left a very great hole in my life as I rather enjoy forums reading and getting invovled in discussions .

Now I am a plodder(after I had left this site and all others) and before winter began .I had one lady left on my facebook page from another dating site that was talking to me on a regular basis .But alas I would say lets meet for coffee(a fair few times) and she would reply no I might just appear where your fishing one day and surprise you .
Unbeknowns to me she did this on a day I didnt park where I told her(heard about thatfrom her) I normally park.On a warm autumn morning with rain there I was checking my phone(well ok taking fish pcitures) . Called her up found her the bad timing on my part it had been raining I was dressed in religous shorts( yes with holes) tshirt hiking boots and a bobmber jacket .
Well one doesnt wear good clothes fishing(hell I would have if I'd known) not sure if the sight of me dressed like this or the fact as we walked and talked I caught undersize Bream after Bream and salmon trout .
So this wonderful barefoot lady (yes she went everywhere shoeless) and I chatted for a long time along the shore.Sent her a txt message latter of how great it was etc .Nothing didnt occur to me perhaps my appearance had driven her off .
After reading her facebook page of that days events minus meeting me I got a rather long written facebook email .
Which basicly said what almost every other lady had said but in such a long winded upmarket way that I was nice but no thanks .
And she was going to pop down and see me one day while i fished .
Looking back at that email I kind of "snapped" .Not the right word but I went through my facebook "friends " I deleted and blocked 1 lovely lady from here and we had only ever emailed for about a year .And then everyone who I had never ever met even from forums I was a regular went in the bin.
Even declared to my co workers that was finally it for me no more dating .I kept hearing toture stories from a co worker friend of her experiances and I kept thinking I'm not that bad I dont need a date that bad .
Then of course one day I woke up and thought why have I given up .So I signed up again with a just looking for friends seeing any female I dated just wanted to be friends anyway
And to that lovely lady who was barefoot and tried so hard to dress down and make it appear she hadn't gone to any trouble .Yes I am almost 50 over weight my hair is salt and pepper I wear glasses have teeth missing.Perhaps you should have dated that hunk you passed on for me .Then again whould the hunk have liked an over 40 over weight lady with a big facial wart covered with make up .I would have loved you warts and all :)
So people in my very long winded way I'M BACK I may never ever date anyone again and I mean date UNLIKE THE ABOVE(Friggin wannabe hippies with money earth mother goddess save me) .I may never have anyone to hold .I may never know the love form a lady again .HELL I may never get a friggin smile from anyone .
BUT TO THE ENTIRE WORLD I DONT CARE !!!
I am MICKYJ everywhere else on the net so I'm here and I dont care .

PS
To whoever out there in the void FATE GOD Earthmother Goddess Stalin etc etc .I did in fact yell out there is no such thing as true love .GO on prove me friggin wrong

PPS
That feels so much better

Yes well been a long time, since you left we have all found partners and none of us a single anymore.

Good one Tony

Unless you arent being sarcastic and congrats are in order

I'm back with a new name



Yes so am I -.-

What I want to know is did you get yourself lumbered up to an expensive overpriced car loan?

and we werent even looking.Lol

me daggyone no way I paid cash for a lancer .
way best car ive ever owned and yes it was new lol

your the second person who has told me that well done