Im confused ( Archived) (20)

(((((((wish)))))))) hi babe!! kiss on the cheek how ya feeling hun?

Thanx bro, I know Im not the only one, and believe me Ive been in alot more painful of a situation...It just seems that the older I get the more anxious I am to find someone to spend my life with, and the more painful it is to lose someone that could have been...thanx though bro, its nice to know Im not the only male thats shed a tear..LOL
Respects,
Jerome

LOL, I knwo what youre saying bro...its tough, and you remeind me alot of one of my road dogs, if I were aloud to I would come into your country and kick up some beer and some dirt with ya bro, but Canada dont want me LOL
Respects,
Jerome

NO WONDER YOU'RE OFF THE DEEP END!!!!!!!!

I just went into cardiac arrest FOR you!

LOL thanx crash, Ill get back with the beer and coffee soon, but cigarettes always go with my beer and coffee, so I cant do either of those if I want to kick tabacco, I plan I can quit verything for one month, and then I can have my beer and coffee back, Im just threw with cigarettes I dont like things having such a powerful control over me, Ive already got enough thats got control over me LOL...

Oh, I just had another crappy thought.

You spent time with her family...maybe they're giving her grief over you for some reason or another.

My Momma absolutely adores winds, but then gives me the third degree over the whole online scenario.

I think she's scared. I think maybe she's come to the realization she's the one who made the mistake. She might be scared to try to mend things in fear of being rejected. There was obviously a connection between the two of you, and I know your pain all to well. I know it seems like kicking someone when you're down, the way she is doing you right now in your conversations. A part of me says to forget her, and another says not to. I struggled with that when my ex-fiance left....Should I, or should I, not forget her. I carried a lot of pain inside over her for so long, but I always had that glimmer of hope she would come back in my life. It took me until probably earl summer last yr to finally push past the pain, and to fully move on.

God works in mysterious ways, and it sometimes is very trying for us to go thru. Things have been in motion since we were first brought in this world, and the is a reason for everything that happens. Now being able to put logic to the reason, that's what drives us nuts sometimes. Some are easy, and some we can't figure out for the life of us. The best advise I could give at this point is......be yourself, let your heart lead you, and even if this doesn't work....have faith and carry on. This may not be meant to be, or it could be a (tough, nerve racking) test for you to go thru.

I shed many a tear over the ex because of so much I loved her. Time heals all wounds (or so they say), but there is no set time frame, everyone is different. I think being a "real man" and or "strong man", doesn't mean you cannot cry. If a man isn't afraid to open up and show emotion, now that's a man in my book. Being a crybaby is a whole different thing. Some men don't cry, some do, that shouldn't make either any the lesser.

I hope things work out for you regardless of what comes to be of this situation.

Shaun

Thank you guys once again..no matter I got to complain about you all always make me feel so much better, I hope one day I can be as much of a help to you as you guys have been to me...and crash I think what you said has a little bit to do with it...although Ill probably never know..
Thanx guys,
Jerome

Thanx crash, I sent Kami a copy of this song and I think she dug it....she actually called me today for the first time since I left the airport there in New Mexico..we had a normal conversation, I hope that maybe shes coming around! Im soo excited!
Jerome

Jerome, Jerome. I can tell you this. I do not know why the two of you broke up but right now she does not care about you. If she did, she would not continue to play games. She would care enough to back off from you until she figures out what she wants. However it is not her who you should blame for your pain. You are allowing her to Use you for her own personal gain. Remember, rejection is hard for everyone and That is probaly what you are responding to. Not your overwhelming love for her. You need to step back and worry about yourself. see if after a little time has gone by if you really want HER. But you can't possible see that now. She is rejecting you and that hurts. So step back man. Stop making everything about the way she feels. Who cares if she wants to keep talking. Tell her to get a girlfriend and care enough about you to let you heal.


Best wishes

Joi