It's good to feel alive! (9)

It was but a year ago...

The consultant will see you now!
His words echo in my mind...
There is no way I can find
To describe the why’s and how’s

As he sat there, just kept repeating
I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry...
We will sort you out, you’ll see...
Here’s the date for another meeting...

Went home that day - got there somehow...
Confirmed what I already knew
My relationship was truly through
Support was scarce - downhill from now...

With lines of worry on my brow
Dis-ease in body, mind and heart
Made sure my home he did depart
Love myself first was my new vow

Alone to feel, face up and ponder – Why now?
Are my days numbered? Am I to die?
Has my life already passed me by?
No way! I refuse! To that I will not bow!

Offending bits at once removed! Wow!
Not my time yet! How’s that for lucky...
You must be blessed indeed my lady!
The worry lines gone from my brow...

This was all a year ago - and now?
Just got back from dreaded check up
New lease of life confirmed – cleared up
I’m gonna live! Do all time does allow...

Epilogue:
It is so good to feel alive
To feel the heart and body thrive
The mind of course and the soul too
Without them we're just through!
Flower Of The Snow

This is a little reminder to everyone to get off their arses and live how they want to live and do what they want to do - NOW!

important thoughts and good conclusions

when things are real down - let it happen - from there it only can get up again - again let it happen

Oh! Yeah! Back then gave me new perspective on life and been counting my blessings ever since...

Just thought I would make you smile.

I MET YOU IN MY DREAM
I AWOKE STRETCHED OUT MY HAND TO STROKE YOUR HAIR.
IT WAS THEN I REALISED YOU WERE NOT THERE.
YOU WERE STILL IN MY DREAM WHERE WE HAD FIRST MET.
THE MEETING WAS NOT LIKE IN THE FAIRY TALES OR MOVIE SET.
OUR EYES DID NOT COME TOGETHER TO MEET IN A CROWDED ROOM.
IT WAS MORE OF A PHYSICAL CONTACT MAYBE A LITTLE TOO SOON.
I WALKED ALONE BY THE SEA IN THE BAY ON A BEAUTIFUL DAY IN MAY.
AS I LOOKED UP YOU WERE COMING THE OPOSITE WAY.
OUR EYES LOCKED TOGETHER AS IF FIXED BY SUPER GLUE.
I WAS NOT LOOKING DOWN SO WHAT HAPPENED NEXT, I HAVE NOT A CLUE.
IT WAS THEN THAT I FELL OVER MY FEET AND PLUNGED INTO THE SEA.
YOU GAVE OUT A SCREAM AND THEN JUMPED IN TO RESCUE ME.
IT WAS NOT SO MUCH YOUR WEIGHT THAT TOOK THE WIND OUT OF ME.
IT WAS MORE TO DO WITH THE ROCK UNDERNEATH THE SEA.
AS YOU LANDED LIKE A JUMBO JET DIRECTLY ON TOP OF ME.
I CAN NOT SWIM AND TRIED TO GRAB HOLD OF YOUR CLOTHS.
I GRABED HOLD OF YOUR BREAST, THAT’S WHEN YOU BROKE MY NOSE.
A LEFT HOOK BETTER THAN ANY I HAVE SEEN IN A FIGHT.
MY SIGHT BLURRED AS I BECOME CONFUSED WAS IT DAY OR NIGHT.
YOU WERE A HERO TO THE PEOPLE WHO WATCHED ON THIS DAY IN MAY.
AS YOU CARRIED ME ACROSS YOUR, SHOULDERS FROM THE SEA AND BAY.
THE FENCE WAS NO PROBLEM FOR YOU AS YOU JUMPED IT LIKE A CAT.
YOU FORGOT ABOUT ME ON YOUR BACK AS I TOOK OFF LIKE A BALL FROM A BAT.
THE FLIGHT WAS GOOD BUT IT WAS THE LANDING THAT CAUSED ME PAIN.
I TRIED TO READ THE SIGN AS IT FLEW PAST BUT IT WAS ALL IN VAIN.
I COULD READ THE SIGN NOW MY TRAVEL HAD COME TO AN END.
I BECAME CONCERNED AS IT READ “TO ENTER YOU MUST BE INSAIN”
YOU HELD MY HAND LIKE 2 LOVERS AS WE WALKED AROUND THE BEND.
YOU KNOW WHEN A LARGE ANIMAL IS ANGRY YOU CAN TELL.
I TRIED TO HELP YOU RUN, BUT YOU WERE GONE LIKE A BAT OUT OF HELL.
I WAS ON MY SECOND FLIGHT OF THE DAY WITHOUT WINGS OR POWER.
THIS LANDING WAS PAINLESS AS THE BULL DROPPED ME IN A COW PAT.
IT WAS THEN I THOUGHT THIS WAS NOT MY BEST DAY FROM WHERE I SAT.
YOU SAID I SMELT BAD FROM THE DISTANCE YOU WERE AT.
WITH MY NOSE SPREAD ACROSS MY FACE SMELL WAS OF NO INFORMATION.
YOU WANTED ME TO GO TO YOUR HOME, I ACCEPTED THE INVERTATION.
YOU DECIDED TO WASH AND DRY MY NOW BAD SMELLING CLOTHS.
ALSO YOU WOULD PLACE SOME THING COLD ON MY BROKEN NOSE.
WE REACHED YOUR HOME AND YOU INTRDUCED ME TO YOUR PARROT LEE.
A LARGE BIRD WITH A BIG BEAK WHO TOOK AN INSTANT DISLIKE TO ME.
YOU SAID HE COULD TALK BUT HE’S JUST GOT HIMSELF INTO A STATE.
AS I WALKED PAST HIS CAGE HE LOOKED HIS EYES FILLED WITH HATE.
YOU DECIDED TO TAKE OFF MY CLOTHS TO WASH AND DRY.
I DID NOT HAVE A PROBLEM WITH THIS I WAS NEVER SHY.
I WAS NAKED IN FRONT OF YOU WONDERING WHAT YOU WOULD DO TO ME.
YOU LOOKED DOWN LAUGTHED AND DECIDED TO MAKE A CUP OF TEA.
LATER WE DID SIT CLOSE BOTH NAKED ON THE SETTEE.
YOUR HANDS BEGAN TO TRAVEL TO PLACES THEY SHOULD NOT BE.
I LOOKED AT YOUR HUGE BREASTS I WAS TEMPTED BUT THEN GAVE A SIGH.
I THEN FELT MY BROKEN NOSE AND DECIDED THE PRICE WAS TO HIGH
WITH A PARROT FILLED WITH HATE HOOVERING STARING AT ME.
MY NOSE BROKEN SPREAD ACROSS MY FACE THROBING LIKE A BEE.
I COULD NOT EVEN RAISE A SMILE THIS MOMENT OF PASSION WAS NOT TO BE.
IT WAS THEN YOU LET LEE FROM HIS CAGE TO FLY AROUND THE ROOM.
I BEGAN TO SWEAT AND HAVE THIS FEELING OF PENDING DOOM.
YOU GAVE ME MY CLOTHS NOW CLEAN AND RECEIVED THANKS FROM ME.
MY SHIRT HAD SHRUNK AND MY TROUSERS WERE ONLY JUST BELOW MY KNEE.
YOU TRIED TO HELP ME FIT INTO MY CLOTHS THAT WERE NOW TOO SMALL.
YOU PULLED AND PUSHED MY MANHOOD IT WAS NO GO I WAS STILL EXPOSED.
TRY AS YOU MAY THE ZIP ON MY TROUSERS WOULD NOT CLOSE.
IT WAS THEN LEE MADE HIS ATTACK CLAWS SINKING INTO PRIVATE PARTS.
THEN HIS BEAK ATTACK, HERO I AM NOT SO MY SCREAMING STARTS.
I WAS NEVER A BIG PERSON BEFORE THIS EVENT NOW IT IS LESS.

Sounds more like a nightmare than a dream!

Cool innit?

Snowflower,

It was an experierience of horror. I am happy, ever so happy that you are out of it without harm to your essential soul.

But does that justify going mad or wild? Perhaps it does. Perhaps it would lead to worse ends

In my experience, which is not as extensive as yours, I have always stepped back from life a bit afraid, a bit prudent- I always thought I was an example of the weakest managing best and not perishishing.

I cant judge. Maybe your strenght came from fighting; maybe the doctors told you bad news usekelessly; maybe something else. But you have been fortunate. Not everyone will not be,

I understantand this expression of defiant joy. But stay calm. Not everybody will be so lucky.

Cout Drunk