How do you... ( Archived) (26)

I am deeply sorry you are going through this. Cry when you have to and ask God not for an answer but for strength.

I lost my mother at 14 and my father well, he didn't love me and my sisters like he should have and didn't care what happened to us. My mother was the sweetest, most generous woman. I watched her slowly weaken and used to hold her and cry when i came home from school and realised she wasn't going to get any better because she couldn't even eat. She raised her three kids and four from my father's first marriage( imagine this- without my father)! Now that reason alone is enough for me to ask God why he would take a woman like her.
But since there are no answers, i think of her and cry almost everytime yet i feel so good that as i cry, i can only think of the good things she did. I think God alone has the answers but i try not to blame him because he is the only one who loves me unconditionally and the same one who gave me my mother. I still feel the love of his gift and that makes me stronger.