Some know me well, some don't. But, hopefully everyone can help here...
Some know that i have battled the bottle, lost on occasion, and winning right now.
But, it has messed me up i think. I am always an open person and try to help everyone. But, right now, i don't want anyone around me. I'm closing up and trying to just be bymyself. All i do is come home from work, do what i have to do around the house and stay in my room, just mess around on here or watch t.v. I have forgotten what it was like to live life to the fullest.
I miss my friends, but i don't want to see them. I talk on here every once in awhile...but i don't really get into it like i use to.
Hell, im not depressed i just don't know what the hell to do tomorrow. I guess i don't have anything to look forward too anymore. I use to feel like i wanted someone so bad...but now i don't really care.
You are depressed but you just don't realize it...Find new ways of having fun that don't include drinking and new friends if you must...BUT don't sink into isolation it leads to despair and is not a place you want to go...If neccesary MAKE yourself get out of the house even for just a little while...You will feel much better trust me!!!!!!!!
this might sound lame,,but!! I am doing it myself,,juicing greens and other vegies,,and also htdrating with water,,,feel so much better..I still have a hard time getting out and I have a million things to do,,,but my god! I can;t believe it seems so much better to deal with things,,,anyway,,give me a shout anytime, you're a good guy and deserve some great things!! ;-}
When I feel that way I make it a point to go out to town and walk, go to a diner and maybe have a nice conversation with a fellow patron, go to a park and enjoy the greenery... You may still feel depressed but when you get home, you'll feel a little better.
I don't know if you went to AA and were given the name of a phone buddy you could call for support , but that would help. Usually talking to someone who's been through the same ordeal helps. Also, I would find something that interests you and do it, join the gym, art, music. Life is what YOU make it. You are in control. Best wishes to ya!
As humans I think all of us are born with the need to share our lives with someone. The fulfillment of this need can be the cause of constant concern and occasional pain. Their are times we may reach out and offer that which we have to give to someone who has no need, and/or does not recognize the value of what we are offering.. and this type of rejection causes pain.. So we shut ourselves off.. But then someone comes along who has a need for, and recognizes the value of what we have to give.. To that person we represent the possibility of an end to lonely nights.. of dreams come true.. a chance for happiness.. But because the memory of rejection, or things that have gone wrong and caused so much pain, we no longer reach out for it. So we must remember that this need within can not be fulfilled by one person reaching.. It can only be fulfilled when two are willing to meet halfway.
You have made the most important step of this process...admiting that something is wrong. And yes, you sound as though you are falling into a depression. It is normal, actually, for those whom have had drinking problems and are trying to over come them. Honestly, it would be a great help to you if you can find an organization or a counsleor to talk to. You need somebody....it is quite important that you discuss your thoughts openly with somebody and get some insight as to what it is your are going through.
There are a great many people out there who care.....all you have to do is ask....
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Some know that i have battled the bottle, lost on occasion, and winning right now.
But, it has messed me up i think. I am always an open person and try to help everyone. But, right now, i don't want anyone around me. I'm closing up and trying to just be bymyself. All i do is come home from work, do what i have to do around the house and stay in my room, just mess around on here or watch t.v. I have forgotten what it was like to live life to the fullest.
I miss my friends, but i don't want to see them. I talk on here every once in awhile...but i don't really get into it like i use to.
Hell, im not depressed i just don't know what the hell to do tomorrow. I guess i don't have anything to look forward too anymore. I use to feel like i wanted someone so bad...but now i don't really care.
What the heck .... is my problem...