bajanblueOPSpeightstown, Saint Peter Barbados3,724 posts
Heat that feels like summer drags sweat from pores just hanging out while I do nothing. Lazy day with impulses to work all unacknowledged as I shut down the tendrils that connect me to the world, to life, to you. I want to be alone today. I want to feel the ache of the abyss that calls my name in serried echoes, plaintive notes that plead for me to join the throng that envies me the heat of blood the salt of sweat, the pulse that stutters, stumbles in its measured pace as if it should feel guilt for beating when so many hearts lie silent in the empty halls where heaven should have been to greet them. I want to feel alone away from all the gentle tugs against the webs I spin with every breath, each smile each word of greeting making links that never break although they fade like wilting flowers if not cherished and renewed. Strange to be seeking lonely, a mood brought on by sultry air, night looming like a frown across the sky, while echoes of I love you play across the webs and in your absence make me want to cry.
bajanblue: In a really odd mood today, just cannot get the dots to connect so I stopped trying and let them be dots.
Sometimes you just have to let things be what they are. I guess I'm a bit of an odd person, but I like the feeling of missing someone and don't mind the lonely of I love you.
alabamabebeBanks of the Warrior River, Alabama USA4,404 posts
jbibiza: Sometimes you just have to let things be what they are. I guess I'm a bit of an odd person, but I like the feeling of missing someone and don't mind the lonely of I love you.
If you're odd so am I. I love that exquisite pain of missing.
bajanblueOPSpeightstown, Saint Peter Barbados3,724 posts
alabamabebe: If you're odd so am I. I love that exquisite pain of missing.
Expressed beautifully bajan.
jbibiza: Sometimes you just have to let things be what they are. I guess I'm a bit of an odd person, but I like the feeling of missing someone and don't mind the lonely of I love you.
Well, that makes three oddities. Missing someone brings so many things into play, it is one of the richest feelings beautifully balnced betweeen pleasure and pain.
bajanblue: Well, that makes three oddities. Missing someone brings so many things into play, it is one of the richest feelings beautifully balnced betweeen pleasure and pain.
bajanblue: Heat that feels like summer drags sweat from pores just hanging out while I do nothing. Lazy day with impulses to work all unacknowledged as I shut down the tendrils that connect me to the world, to life, to you. I want to be alone today. I want to feel the ache of the abyss that calls my name in serried echoes, plaintive notes that plead for me to join the throng that envies me the heat of blood the salt of sweat, the pulse that stutters, stumbles in its measured pace as if it should feel guilt for beating when so many hearts lie silent in the empty halls where heaven should have been to greet them. I want to feel alone away from all the gentle tugs against the webs I spin with every breath, each smile each word of greeting making links that never break although they fade like wilting flowers if not cherished and renewed. Strange to be seeking lonely, a mood brought on by sultry air, night looming like a frown across the sky, while echoes of I love you play across the webs and in your absence make me want to cry.
Might I say, Bajanblue, that loneliness is my greatest depression, but for some reason, today I gave myself a break, and said to myself, This is my day. The sun was out, I put myself in a mentally challenging situation (very simple for the average person), and felt like I deserved to feel happy.
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drags sweat from pores
just hanging out
while I do nothing.
Lazy day with impulses
to work all unacknowledged
as I shut down the tendrils
that connect me to the world,
to life, to you.
I want to be alone today.
I want to feel the ache
of the abyss that calls
my name in serried echoes,
plaintive notes that plead
for me to join the throng
that envies me the heat of blood
the salt of sweat, the pulse
that stutters, stumbles
in its measured pace
as if it should feel guilt
for beating when so many hearts
lie silent in the empty halls
where heaven should have been
to greet them. I want to feel alone
away from all the gentle tugs
against the webs I spin
with every breath, each smile
each word of greeting
making links that never break
although they fade
like wilting flowers
if not cherished and renewed.
Strange to be seeking lonely,
a mood brought on by sultry air,
night looming like a frown
across the sky, while echoes
of I love you play across the webs
and in your absence make me
want to cry.