Yes, there are several shooting ranges in OKC ...w/women learning to shoot so they can legally carry a gun... that's a possibility, even if to make a new friend. Loneliness feels terrible... keep on writing... being alone doesn't have to mean lonely... tho not quite sure how to go from lonely to alone when the lonely comes from being broken-hearted. I guess give it time- things will improve sometime. ...to wish you could be like the rest--well it does feel as if the rest have it all, but there are many in your shoes...
(I've tried playing the "GAMES" on here when I felt depressed. They were a nice diversion.) If it sounds like I'm being trivial, I'm not. I'm serious... sometimes any diversion can be a big help...
BTW, as someone already commented, you Are a gifted writer.