I know now that I'm ready to die now
I don't know how or why
only that it's okay with me if I die
It's a pretty good feeling
neither spiritual nor religious
...just an easing
no suicidal thoughts or rot of that nature
I have merely reached that point
death is welcome
I recognized this last week
don't know how or why
haven't dwelt on it
just thought that I would express it
while I still could
there is no hidden agenda for family and friends
to try and right the ship
...the ship is well afloat
I'm alive and well
I must be....I'm still typing
I'm certainly not belittleing(belittling?)
others deaths....
every day I awaken to be saddened by another death
of someone close or previously unknown to me
it's just that I accept...welcome it now
I have little more to accomplish
...nor much more to say
but I really did little of either...anyway
I don't feel sorry for myself
I feel lucky!
now it is as though
all screws have been removed
I'm now free
I may act with any and all abandon I see fit
but my actions are little changed
as long as I'm still around...
I will continue to try to act in the best interests
of my family and loved ones
but truth is
bluntly
I care little if I'm here...or not
it's an easing
welcome...
death