For the holidays seem to pull me down. Where as i feel my spirit is on the ground. Low onto the floor i go sopping up my spirit so i can get up enough positivity to be able to go on. I put a smile on my face and fake it for a while you see because holidays are just not for me. My spirit is trodden down and i try to lift it up yet no success do i see. I just want happiness for me real soon Lord help me see the way you want to get there for me.