There's nothing I can do while I sit & boil,
building up this energy in my inner coil,
in which I much release but your just no where to be found!
That's where all these words come from anyway,
but I'm frustrated today 'cause you still play your f#ck!ng games!
My insecurity loves to bite at me,
but it's you who originally laid it down upon me!
Now I lay to rest in the palm of a tight grip,
my life was in your hands & you purposely let it slip!
Ripped into my heart & let the blood drip! Drip! Drip!
D. R. I. P.
Now I'll be gone,
to leave you to the rest,
to cast your shadow of cru-el-ty on them & say that they are blessed!
Creating more like YOU!
It's no wonder,
why the world has come to what it's come to!
You help me see why honor has ceased,
Respect, fallen!
Class & loyalty on it's knee's crawling on the ground,
why trust has been broken down,
why I stopped hoping & found no faith for it's alive & on fire!
Desire is shattered when you scatter from me!
Down the drain goes my mind,
in this lonely life of mine,
'cause I'm still a f#ck!n' man at home alone crying.
One minute I'm fine,
the next she's in my sight (hallucinations),
coming around the car,
ghost in crisp dark night (hallucinations),
yet your not with me!
It's my day dreams, turning to hallucinations!
This night is one,
I'll never have back,
yet another we've been away.
A night we'll never get back,
such sick & twisted games,
a permanent R.O.?
Over my head in sorrow,
you can't be f#ck!ng serious!
I pray to see tomorrow!
Things would be different,
if you ever really did,
feel a true emotion,
mean a word you said!
Prove what you had claimed,
I guess your dreams had changed,
I was no longer in them,
forgotten & thrown away!...

...your fabricated in my mind,
memories which are mine,
my deception tightly winds all for my own purposes,
my manipulating pain underneath slowly surfaces!

Hallucinations.
Austin J. Frick
Age Of Reason Is Now
7-'12.