MY MASTERPIECE (Last poem)
Damm I suck,
Not good enough,
Not for anyone,
And its frustrating!
Tried my hands on,
Fixing broken stuffs,
They became worst,
Than it actually was.
And then I tried,
Entering poetry contests,
Only to be denied,
Of reaching top spot!
Forget about a life,
Who gives a damm?
f*cking loser I am,
Loneliness my fate.
What am I good at?
Every corner a dead end,
Give me a god damm sign,
That I am not useless!
Am I screwed for life?
Everything I do goes wrong,
Why do you save me so many times?
Why do I breathe still?
Even the army thinks I am a waste,
Spending good money on me to train,
Im off the hook with nothing to lose ,
Feeling my contribution is of no use.
I can't sing or dance,
Nor sell a pair of socks,
Even the priests avoid me,
Too much trouble I think.
I am left in the dark,
Not knowing what to do,
When you're not sure of yourselves,
What's the point in hanging around.
Another one bites the dust,
I've got the worst of luck,
Living on this world so aimlessly,
Oh why am I still here Lord?
Sleepless at night,
I cry deep inside,
It hurts so bad,
And it still does.
Void is not even close,
To describe someone lame,
I am ten times more,
Than the words above.
Am I good with kids?
I will never know,
Coz I am living alone,
Without someone to love.
Now I am very upset,
Have no skills or talent,
Poetry is all that I had,
But now I close the hatch.
By the way if you're reading this,
I am pouring all my heart out here,
Coz I am giving up on myself,
And will end this poem as my very last.
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Posted: Oct 2013
About this poem:
lately very disappointed with some events taking place elsewhere,
its affected my morale badly,
Alas this is my Masterpiece!
my very last composed one.
if something goes right in your life
you can take comfort and strength from there,
when nothing seem to go brightly or boost your confidence, it takes a Hell of a beating and the last straw would be jumping off a bridge. . .
not me, not even good enough to do it
when depression hits, i fight it back by listening to music.
its not working this time. . .
the good news is more time to comment.
Comments (73)
Nu
me friend, and your poems greatly imaginitive. I can't
battle the maidens alone. If you leave they would
storm the castle and devour me. That's what they're
waiting for. Think this over..We need you. Cafe
Great poem, by the way, full of emotion that I can well understend
I loved this honest and open heart from you! Thank you, your bravery, it shines very bright! I for one, thoroughly enjoy your mature wisdom and unique style,and wish that you would not quit... But, my dear friend, only you know whats in your heart, follow it...!!!
In love and light!!!
Earl
I think many comments before this one said much. All I can add is when you get knocked down it's how you pick yourself up my friend..You have nowhere to go but up now..
Regards,
Ken
Now we go back a long way on here. With life as with poetry you just try your best. I've done the dummy spit too a number of times. We just have to manage and stay positive. Everyone finds their own niche and it is up to us to make things happen. Never get in the habit of self pity. There are people out there with terrible afflictions and terrible lives but they soldier on. These people truly amaze me. They inspire me. Now I don't want anymore nonsense about a last poem, because you are part of the woodwork here. Take a break if need be but don't stop with your poetry.
Cheers mate. I'm sure you'll get back on top of things.
Just filling up my confidence,and turning my negative aura into positive.
something just hit a nerve,and i crumble,
I'll be back. . . with a poem .
when any thing i do goes wrong
,or every move i make back fires
well either bad luck or hex by someone
Hard to show the events happening
took some time to collect myself and continue moving on.
also part of it is depression, just so happen that every bit of crap crash at the same time!
thank you for your valuable input,and for being caring enough to put it in.
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the difference between lonely and having someone around,is when you are down,there's help, i was keeping it bottled up for some time and just exploded, and the best way was to write it down,
and at least i got to get the love back ten times from my beautiful fans and friends.
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who cares about being No. 1 in some lame contest. . . well i still do,
just that i see my friends getting top spot
and i am invisible and not even chosen,
I had never win anything big or small in my life,just an acknowledgment somewhere to validate my special gift.
A top win will give incredible boost To my self esteem and chase my doubts.
Thanks again my dear good friend.
.
I am not dead, just not writing for the time being. . . I've written a score of poems that i am going to post them one by one slowly. .. and if there is battle against you, . . i would not pass that up. . and power to your pen for the tribute on me. I needed that badly. . . it felt so wonderful and i honestly thank you for that!
God bless my dear nemesis. . . .lol s .
I am responding so the worst is over,
only that now it would take some time before i am my old self.
reading all this great support from each poet makes me very happy that you really do enjoy my company and works.
i used to think i have nothing or no one,
now i believe i have you, here always and that's special for me.
happiness is here sharing with you and everyone in poets corner
Thank you so so much. .
glad you came when i needed you the most,
i can never beat this monster by my self,
you help me with your caring words and even thou i can't see youtube, its the action behind the thought that gave me the strength to fight back.
this poem is a reflection and a voice for others who are suffering just like me but in silent,coz they think others won't believe them or that we are attention seekers. . . that's not it
when hurt, show it or let it out coz it makes the body sick and ache with pain
non stop. . . even when you rest
thank god for my music bank that pump up the beat to move it!
Thank you for showing your support, that's all i can ask for and its making me feel much much better. .
Just had to rest and do some workout to clear my head and heart.
its people like you sir that gives me the motivation to write,
actors wants audiences,writers wants critics, my body,spirit and mind is healing,coz it was deeply hurt,
that was not a lie,
the life blood of a poet is his/her fans
this is the energy for me to fight and move on,
if no one came forward to comment this poem,i would have been very disappointed. . .now i am glowing inside for every comment i read.
Thank you so very very much .
and my pen is writing on wards
just not poetic yet. . .but soon
its the combined strength of all the poets that's making me feel better than before,
would not made the world end battles
but it did wipe away the blues and black!
there is peace like a ceasefire
and a growing hope that everything
will be back to normal or maybe better
could not have done it alone without help from you and the rest.
Thank you my dear friend .
you came in a bad time,
but you came and put off the fire
for that i humbly thank you,
coz the suggestion of song list
i am gonna look for them
and download came listen
maybe they can make me even better
you didn't have to answer
but you did and help
for that i humbly thank you
and welcome i say again
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I've only taken part in three competitions at Poetry Soup. I won with ''The Angel'' poem, the second attempt I've placed third so I said to myself I could get used to this. But the third attempt I didn't even place at all, hell no I cant get used to this. But I do write not for the fun of it or to pass the time or for the competitions. Poetry is the greater part of me, it is my life.
So when you find joy in writing like that you push on despite many ignore what you write. Oh and I do get that a lot, believe it or not. So I will leave you on this final note my friend before I start sounding like my dear poet friend Jesse....talkative.
Just as kisses are the unspoken word of love, poetry is the unspoken word of the heart. Let your heart speak the unspoken word through the windows of the world. So as I said before....Write on! Mustapha
dungeon to enter this contest. You must not touch a maiden
for 72 hours, (I will watch over them). Lol.
What are you good at you ask?
To remind you is my task.
You’re maestro with words.
Your poetry has grown from one to many like cattle in herds.
Not many can give a voice to pen.
On earth, gifted like you from 7 billion there are only few men.
Let this poem be not your last.
This moment of feeling lost and helpless with come be the past.
Each of us has moments that are very dark.
But what defines us, is that drive to find that small spark.
So my friend Illuminate the dark, find your spark.
Be not the wolf that cries under a pale moon light but the dog cease not to bark
Let that voice from your pen continue to echo.
My response to you giving up is “HELL NO”
oh yeah morgen i expect to read another poem from you soon, if not be sure to know i'll find you and kick your a**!
Don't stop writing poetry!
Anatawa kawaii desu,
Thank you Kittyhawk,
Nandri nambam - tkQ fnd in Tamil
also to Nu coz now you're a pair. . .
I learnt something that seem to resonante strongly. . . I somehow manage to bounce back. . . this time it was pretty hard, smack on the face. . .
also contributed was the poetry contest. . . . i sent my very best and not even chosen just for mention. . . I get M.M dig. . . and he is a master of love poem period. .
I got my voice and inspiration from poet corner, not poetry soup, moon cafe,poetry.com or gotpoetry. . . its here where my expression soar with beautiful pictures. . .have some finished poems going to post soon. . .
Will I ever be able to weave a pattern so intricate like yours.
And my idol has given his seal of approval that my poem is good for him.
that's you. . . Thank you
i will be writing soon,in the mean time i have got about ten finished poems hanging around. . let me post them
ya will post the rest later
good to hear that you're still writing! look forward to read them!
I read this when you first posted it, but wanted to think about what I wrote in comment for a while....We last spoke quite a while ago, I have unfortunately been busy with stuff that takes me away from here, mainly due to the fact that I find it impossible to multitask when it comes to writing, I need to concentrate on it full time to achieve anything I think is worthwhile. I have been loitering around here for about 5-6 years now and have seen a lot of people come and go, and many come back again, and again and again, it really doesn't matter you know...Everyone needs a break from here, if they are sort of full time after a while, it isn't a bad thing and can help gain perspective.
About poetry competitions....One of the reasons that I love PC is that having tried many poetry sites, with "Success" in a few, I have found PC stands head and shoulders above the rest! In my humble opinion it is mainly due to there being no competition here, and the people here....You can write Just for yourself and no one else. You know...It really doesn't matter whether you get comments or not my friend, the fact that people have read it is the main thing, many people read poetry here but don't comment for many reasons at any given time, and not liking the poem is only one very small reason, many people that don't comment arn't able to, they may not be a PC member for instance, but surely it only takes one person to read and gain something from one of your poems to make it very worthwhile both to poet and reader, they may not say anything, but that doesn't mean they haven't gained from what you have written.....I know a little about depression as I am Bi polar, though don't talk about it much, and, I find it easier on myself not to write when I am down, as I like to be as upbeat in my writing and comments as I can. Here on PC you will also find many friends that you will just not find on other sites, as I think you are just finding out.....All I can say Morgen is never write anything you don't believe, and write for just one person, yourself, as you will ever only be the one person that knows whether what you have written is "Good" or not, and not just have an opinion about it.
Keep writing Morgen, PC will always need you and Poets like you.
Kindest regards,
Andrew.
Christin
You have received so many "pick yourself up and move on","cheering up" and comforting comments that there's nothing more that I can add except to say this:
Some wise person said that no matter how tough a situation is, "that too, will pass".
Remember that the only person you have control over is yourself.
Also, God helps those who help themselves.
I just want to add some statistics. Your poem has set a record for the number of comments on Poet's Corner, considering the time frame. It has generated 50 comments (at the time of my viewing and posting this) in 4 days. Some poems have more comments than yours but within a longer time span. Doesn't that tell you something about the extent folks at the corner appreciate you?
You have received so many "pick yourself up and move on","cheering up" and comforting comments that there's nothing more that I can add except to say this:
Some wise person said that no matter how tough a situation is, "that too, will pass".
Remember that the only person you have control over is yourself.
Also, God helps those who help themselves.
I just want to add some statistics. Your poem has set a record for the number of comments on Poet's Corner, considering the time frame. It has generated 50 comments (at the time of my viewing and posting this) in 4 days. Some poems have more comments than yours but within a longer time span. Doesn't that tell you something about the extent folks at the corner appreciate you?
I mistakenly posted my comment twice because I did not see it when I checked after I posted it the first time so I repeated the posting. It was only then I realized that I had only checked page 1, and not page 2. I did not realize that the comments were spread over 2 pages. Sorry again!
Have a nice day!