can still recall the moment
I saw it coming from her eyes
an all too clear reminder
I could be taken by surprise
so I merely closed my eyelids
turned my back to block a view
I felt that I must walk away
better that than be subdued
a lifetime spent in paradise
was just a glance away
yet I kept my eyes tight shut
and far away I stayed
could illusion carry me?
all the lying to myself
is my act avoiding her...
just an act of selfish stealth?
could I be just a hypocrite?
in a bed that I had made
or am I only of reason?
a man who's just afraid
though she is all I've ever wanted
with indifference shall I don
with my collar up, ignoring her
quite soon enough, she'll just be gone
so I went upon my way
without her in my life
little did I have to say
just another day of strife
but still sometimes I wonder
with lonely gaze into the sky
what really may have happened
.....had she but seen into my eyes