I seem to be spending All the waking hours of my lonely existence ~ All the stressful times that make up my days ~
Thinking of how it will feel When I drive up to your kitchen door And climb out of my car.
Quietly as a mouse I bring in all goodies That will hopefully please you And bring you pleasure.
Only then do I make that slight sound ~ That brief alarm that alerts you Of my arrival.
You slowly ascend into the kitchen for our ritual ~ That cherished first moment when our eyes lock ~ That magnetic first second when your strong arms Surround me and hold me close.
The feel of your hard body as it presses against the softness of my own.
Your arms hold me tightly As your hands gently caress My awaiting flesh.
Your lips softly touch upon mine As you gently cup my upturned face In those strong hands I love so much.
Their touch telling me that you know Beyond a doubt ~ That I am yours ~ And yours alone.
I am in Heaven!
But then reality sets in ~ And my mind quickly advances to the future.
In only a very short time we will be saying goodbye to each other.
I already can feel the pain~ The knot that is forming in my stomach ~ The time that I hate so much is already getting closer.
For soon ~ in a matter of days ~ I will be standing in this very place With hot wet tears streaming down my saddened face.
It is not fair.
Why is life making it so difficult For us to be together ~ To wake up in each others arms ~ To no longer have any qualms ~ To know the serenity that calms ~ Knowing we can now always be joined.
I hate myself ~ really hate myself ~ For not being able to just relax And enjoy the time we can share.
But instead ~ I live in dread ~ Of what I just can't get out of my head ~ That day ~ much too soon ~ When we again ~ will have to say goodbye.
We each express our sadness in different ways.
I ~ with my abundant and ever flowing tears ~ You ~ with the withdrawal that lessens your fears ~ Both of us hoping that this might be our last goodbye For many, many years.
"But then reality sets in ~ And my mind quickly advances to the future."
There is nothing in future to replace goodbyes, tears and fears of sad reality, and then they will pass too and be no more - all will pass, we should be prepared for what's inevitable long in advance!
So, never part with your beloved! With all the blood grow into them! And every time take leave for ever, When for a moment you leave them!
Thank you for sharing!
doglover14OPhudson, New York USAAug 18, 2016
Happygolucky4u
Thank you so much for your wonderful comment ~ and also for bringing this poem back.
Comments (19)
Thank you so much for such nice present
Of reflection of feelings ,well done Maddy
Rob
Mady ~
Such a beautiful inner expression of romanticism ~
A woman's happy dream of arrival with
the outlook of such a sad departure!
An excellent write ~
JimEee
Enjoyed your poem. SM
It is I who thank you for your beautuful commwents.
Thank you so much.
Mady
Thank you for your feedback.
There are many times when I wish I was able to 'think like a man' ~ life would be so much easier....lol
Mady
Kathy
I guess I was 'just a tad down'
when I wrote this...lol.
Thanks for your comments.
Mady
Thank you.
I know you're right.
We all realize that time here on earth is limited ~ and I know that I'm wasting far too much of it by 'too much thinking'.
Thank you for the reminder.
Mady
Bad Mady...lol
What you say is very true ~ but sometimes ~ even when we WANT to stay ~ we MUST go.
IT IS A VERY PAINFUL THING TO HAVE TO DO.
Thank you for your comments.
Mady
Loved the style loved the words
I sure hate those good-byes also ~ but I guess if I didn't say good-bye ~ I couldn't say hello...( non-sense comment on my part lol).
But as the Spanish say..."Hasta Luego"...see you later...or until we meet again...sure sounds better.
Thanks for your caring comments.
Mady
Thank you so very much for your wonderful comments.
Mady
And my mind quickly advances to the future."
There is nothing in future to replace goodbyes, tears and fears of sad reality, and then they will pass too and be no more - all will pass, we should be prepared for what's inevitable long in advance!
So, never part with your beloved!
With all the blood grow into them!
And every time take leave for ever,
When for a moment you leave them!
Thank you for sharing!
Thank you so much for your wonderful comment ~ and also for bringing this poem back.
Mady
Thank you so much for your response to this poem.
You are so very wise!!
Mady