should one express their feelings?
shall I lay my heart out bare?
to one I'm not permitted to cherish
is it wrong to say I care?
I wish to only share my leaning
yet my emotion's danger fraught
how may I speak the words of meaning?
a constant struggle with my thought
perhaps remain forever silent
wise course, could be a normal man
accept that some things were never meant
to be spoken save for that they can
but turn my back on all that feeds me?
on passions path, I vowed to follow
I'm at a place, I should never be
where all my past musings ring hollow
for quite a while now it's been clear
how I feel, what must be said
prudence ever alerts the fear
for 'tis another she has wed
oh, there's more here for to know
of the one that leaves me wild
she projects that robust glow
of woman carrying her child
her first, the birth is due in may
she said, it is to be a boy
perhaps there's nothing more to say
her eyes, her heart, her love, her joy
should I be the fool and tell her?
my need, to hold her in my arms
and me, be held alone in her eyes
forever one within her charms
but no, I can not, so I shall not
disturb the life of one so dear
I must show real love for another
....merely wipe away my tears