There were days That I shall say where I lightened someone's mood but that did not last as what came next but a differently inspired brood.
Grasping at straws that are not there any evidence to show I cared. My prejudices got the better of me the truth now I should have strived to see
Yet I was protected unaware ignorant of what I ought to have done Satan sate upon my neck and whispered always in my ear
Where is the good that has come of my life the clock is running down Not my donation of tickets nor my schoolwork or hair could save me from the eternal despair. There were days That I shall say where I lightened someone's mood but that did not last as what came next but a differently inspired brood.
Grasping at straws that are not there any evidence to show I cared. My prejudices got the better of me the truth now I should have strived to see
Yet I was protected unaware ignorant of what I ought to have done Satan sate upon my neck and whispered always in my ear
Where is the good that has come of my life the clock is running down Not my donation of tickets nor my schoolwork or hair could save me from the eternal despair.
I loathe what I see in front of me what an abomination I am now A majestic and good creation of God now a perverted adulterated clod.
I cannot feel any misery for what I am about to receive Eternal damnation seems right for me I have failed to serve the Lord.
My attempts at intercession and salvation were all for naught for since I walked on my own I was damned to die No chance to be praised a wicked man indeed.
The stone collapses the eternal darkness consumes me as I fall from not just the grace of God but from the good standings that I once held with that gallery.
Nothingness the hopeless abyss my new existence without a cause I was prepared for it as I lived I felt the meaninglessness all along
the futility now wreaks havoc on me I try to escape only to return to the nothingness claws and teeth attack at me no protection from the true embodiment of abandonment
The moans and groans pervade my senses I am not alone but isolated kept confined my mind ceases to be whole.
the gashes all across my chest the incessant gnashing gives no rest I cannot cry anymore as blood escapes from every pore
I was a wicked beast who overindulged in the depraved feast that is society and its standards that claimed to have all the answers
With every tear across my face a wound is healed in another place such is the unending love of God protecting us sinners from a brutal demise a love so horribly misguided we cannot die to escape the pain