I find myself in this same old place
Feeling way old my usual space

Been here before almost all of my life
Thinking what ifs and feeling like mice

Deadly that silence lurking by shadows
Creeps closer and closer knight arming the gallows

Quiet all around, echo in place
She sounds bright siren sets thunder bolts grace

Voice through void hear pitch clear my love my baby
Accepting my fate, the risk I had to take maybe

Moments with you a martyr lay wait
Can nothing a pedestal I make

Holding with might, the night forsake
Feeling no warmth, a fear I hate

Toughing cold haste still see by blur
Truth sinking feeling abandoned by her

Now all that is left is odor heaven scent
A waking nightmare, tear locked eyes ever bent

Sitting and staring most of time
Pain through the window false whish for my sign

Drops of pure light slice thought face key, memory smile fill, shimmer of three
Avoiding green stew anger to follow stabbing my gut another to be

Spinning in circles loop pity forever
Infinite sadness thick chocking despair disables together

Need to escape unable to move lost in self-doubt, man fits bill
Cornered by loneliness trapped by worlds no sign will

Locked universal a partner be
Hurt waves break tide she is set free

No need to pretend a love once me
Knowing full well you were taking the key

Often, I wonder life probability seen
Patient I delay stepping in stars beam

Scatter and fall light actors final play
I hope one day another might stray

Feeding my love, I will give it away
Not to long now I rock and sway

Whispers lips close soft get near
Transfixed by her gaze kiss tilted neck here

Moving as one unable to fake
I say night mantra, miss you and need you forever future soul mate