the pain


it permeates.
it radiates and grows taking over all of me, within and without.
it seems inherent- i liken it to having breath.
it is part of the mechanism and cannot be re-routed.

my every moment waking or slumber its there

when i look out the window it makes any pending decisions.
when i drive the car it tells me how far.

it is the harbinger of doom and then
before i realize-its not been here for 2 hrs.

i notice only because its starting afresh
and is crushing me from within, anew.

no one knows.
they think that look on my face is something else
but its the pain.



the pain.