since him....whom?

Thank you all so much.

I believe I have explained my love for love -- even at the raw, broken end. Well some of these are my first love -- and some are the first person I let love me after the first.

I love every relationship's end. I love the gut-wrenching, the tears and the hope and crushing finality -- it's so emotional, I actually wonder sometimes if I "push people away" just to re-experience the deep scarring again... the end is as exciting as the falling in love. Honeymoon phase has the same *amount* of feeling, if not the same exact feelings, as post-breakup.

It appears that I lack some solidity on my own, because anything I have tried to write without feeling lost is.... blegh. Pfft. Bad.


Once again, thank you dears :)