I feel like dying…
I feel like digging a hole and bury myself into it…
I feel like I shouldn’t have been born.
Why must I be like this, why must I feel so deep my emotions?
Wouldn’t it be easier just to be a cold hearted sun of a b*tch?
Wouldn’t it be easier just to not feel and let everything pass by?
Ooo, I wish I didn’t do what I did… I just shouldn’t have told you I loved you… It was not the time yet…
Now I feel like crap… But I already felt like that before, only now I feel like crap and I’m regreting having talked to much…
Now I fear, I fear I’ve just lost all hope…
Why, but why do I look at you and the only thing I want is to take care of you…
Why, but why do I look at you and the only thing that crosses my mind is keeping you safe, protect you from the pain of the world we live in…
Why, oh why did I fall in love for you?
I thougt I was healed from this heart disease that makes me feel so go and so bad at the same time…
But once again I feel, and even though I might not have a chance I let this feeling flow through myself, control my heartbeat, make me wonder and dream of you…
Will I someday be given a chance?
Will I have the pleasure of being the reason of your smile?
Will I have the gift of making your eyes glowing with happiness?
How I wish to wipe the pain of your soul and make your heart beat joyfully again…
Maybe time will help, maybe it will not…
I just want you to know that I’ll be always there for you one way or another.
Doesn´t matter if we’re friends or lovers… You’re always be my friend before anything else.


João Henrique da Silva Nunes Jales Ribeiro 27-10-2008 @ 18:03