But that was what I was doing in the first place i was tryin to avoid the situation but it got out of hand ...I know she likes to talk about him and theres so much I'll listen to...after all he is her partner and i didnt want to come between them and thats what happened no matter what I did ...I know she knows I was tryin my best to keep a seperate relationship,....but her anger and jealousy was gettin the best of her and I saw it comin...I do wish her the best...but I know also she has lost some of us as friends ...we'll see what happens...
I do agree of what you say...I have also thought of the possiblity of my accepting him ...But how she went abouit it was wrong... Her behavior the past week has changed its like she dropped everything for this guy and put her friends last ( actually we all noticed that )...A pattern that would repeat over and over again ...Well I guess myself ( and group of friends ) have tried to let her know that ...but she was being defensive and thought we were against her which isnt true ...We are ( or myself ) tried to reason with her ...but I guess theres so much you can say and being yelled at and called names was the final straw ...sad as that may be ...I do have feeligs and thought I couldnt be bothered with her attitude anymore...So..Yes there is more to this and I just feel I need to take a break...
Im sorry to hear that but thank god you have friends that have stuck by you ,...
I guess where I am I have some friends here,... but where Im originally from there all back home its kinda tough when the friends you grew up with are far away and understand you more...
Thank You for your comment ,...And I suppose it could happen but for now I need time for myself and stew on my thoughts...Maybe...Sometimes I speak my mind too often and thats where I could be getting myself in trouble ... I dunno...
What if I was wrong ?...Here I go with this guilt trip ...Should I have been the better person and given him a chance?...Or ...Should I have expressed my thoughts to him ?...(This is the tricky part)...If I were to give him a chance he would of made money off of me ...If I didnt ...I loose a friend and thats what happened...I see now she obviously is into him and thats her choice ...I doubt if we will be friends again ...and personally ...I dont want to...Id rather be alone than be hurt again ...Its hard not wish someone " I told you so "...I dont look as myself as a vengeful person...I just wish some people would see me as I am and accept me for who I am other than takin advantage of my friendship...
But ,...Ive always been there for her and others ...I know I have a good heart ...I know I make mistakes ...But...It feels like I end up gettin kicked in the teeth ...I will not admit to her Im hurtin...And I am ...What bothers me is she gives me the impression that shes always right and everyone else is wrong!...I have supported her thru the years good and bad ...Where did I go wrong or deserve this?...
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Thank You Mimi