awwwwwwwwww... i truly like this blog.... i so believe in dreams, use to have dream books, but if you hold it in ur possession after 3 days u quit dreaming, well not quit but forget ur dreams, so u have to pass the dream book on to others, as well, after you wake up from a dream..........and look out the window, u will automatically, well no, not automatically forget ur dreams but soon after u wont remember them from the nite before, the window is our world of reality, dreams pass through them.....in the aborginal world, they have dream catchers that are placed above their beds at nite, hand made and they catch all the negative spirits that pass through the nite in their dreams....now when i dream, i phone my friends that have the dreambook and ask...how it is analyzed, wat does it mean......dreams are beautiful....how they are interrupted are always different of course, but i believe they are totally a part of our sub-conscious and daily living but also a part of the .....unknown of who we are and wat can be.....honestly great blog......
well if its any conselation, i know drunks dont need to be enabled, and unfortunately they hurt the ones they truly love, and u need to feel the pain, that it caused you but also have to start enjoying life again.........a new beginning for you.....and his destiny is created by him.......sincerely, wish you the best...
hi amrita, i think i reread ur blog 5 times, not sure here yet, but gonna give it a whirl, i think trying to be good 2 oneself and others is a crucial stepping stone in our journey, and being ourselves, is the utmost important quality we have, thats who we are, i love being me....and for being either judged or critized, and i honestly, personally, myself, really dont care wat ppl think of me, if im doing "goodness" from my heart or just being little ole me, this is who i am.....judgements and critizims are inevitable through our walk of live, its how we handle them is the real question...i do believe, we should always try to be good, do good and always be ourselves cuz thats wat makes us special, regardless of wat ppl think, and im not quite sure yet where god fits in this, need to think more on that, sorry.....
actually wat attracted to me to my partner, was his sense of hahaha amongest many other things of course, i think a good sense of humour is totally smexy, and hes soooooooo much fun to be around, love it, love him........
and do need to say to brun18....sorta kinda hijacked ur blog here...sorry about that, really ...so i am so otta here....wish u the best though and next time i will read ur blog, promise....
ohhhhhh....well then... for me... wine for you....cheap wine too, sorry it was the last from alf's stash, think he's cheap?.....and u know wat? i honestly dont drink and drive.... nop...i do the walk.... from blog to blog and then i fly... yup i do....
just so you know john, i have called myself ugly, stupid and dumb, many times....it takes awhile to start believing in ourselves given our past history/dynamics......but it does happen, positive affirmations, work for me now, i am worthy, i am beautiful, i feel good about me, life and me is beautiful, but i repeat them daily.....have 2, still....and yup, drea is rite, i also went to counseling but after, the road had to be paved by me, to make it smooth.......ur a great guy john, dont ever forget that.....
billy....phewwwwwwwww think i went under the wire, but was it the thread about women being in the kitchen/bedrom, or the thread about a camel being stuck up someones a** or the thread where i wanted to shoot them and tie them up by their balls, after i wrapped them around their necks... ........but thanks for coverage at the bar, and being so sweet to visit me in cell block # 3 if i shall return.... drinks on me...damn that anxiety mad me thirsty...ok, one for you...
stool saved with ur name on it... but holy moly crack a buly.....think i just may have got myself sent to jail.....just waiting here....fuked up on the forums...shitz...ok, if i do get sent off.....mikey, ven, alf, billy, plzzzzzzz keep my bar up and running......fuk.... i always do this... damn it anyways.... sometimes mikey i do need to shup the fook up....
i was just fooling aroun ruben...it took me along time to love myself before i could even committ to another realtionship...long time, and had many insecurties in the past, still do, but i have a partner with unconditional acceptance, and i keep learning something new everyday...i still have alot of growing to do...
@ ruben.... thanks, to funny actually i had to go bak and read my own blog to see wat i posted... but, hear wat ur saying, i quit drinking 2 yrs now and 98 days now, i think, but my daughter reminds me of the exact days... and i learned alot about myself after, and my rules of happiness i do try to apply everyday now, but i do struggle everyday, and now realize i need to take one day at a time, and everyday is my gift i'm very lucy...
a walk in the woods.. ok, that sounds kool...woods have butterflys, bears, beavers, skunks, frogs, dragonflys, bugs, wolves, trees, flowers, flys, insects, rocks, grass, plants....do they have a bar there... and no i dont need a score card mikey, i build tables out of my empties... easier to keep count...
adn yes, mikey i did go tell my family, to go FUK THEMSELVES....no regrets but sometimes, i dont know...miss them but i wouldnt change a thing i said to them...nope....i have morals and values, and they honestly can go fuk themselves.
you know i was just thinking and drinking... it really does suck, when family relations become difficult, well not difficult but hard....i havent talked to my mom for over 2 years or my brothers, cuz of some crap that went down, not good....and it does suck, but i had to do wat was rite for me and my daughter...but i do miss them...alot actually....and NO.....not going to make a mends.....my life is good now, but still, i miss them...
RE: What did you have dream last night?
awwwwwwwwww... i truly like this blog....