People are not necessarily bad but may have behaviours that are not so nice, and gradually rise to the surface, it is fair to say we need both in our lives as we don't always know if a person is going to hurt us after initially meeting them, therefore after they hurt us , we learn from it or we don't, that is personal choice, but either way, the whole situation has been an experience........
So here we all are on a dating site, for whatever reasons, well, let me just say I was thinking lately of all the things I'd like to achieve, make a film lol, swim with dolphins, be in a cage and have sharks swim past, jump from an aeroplane with a parachute, visit Egypt, go on Safari, then due to a loved one dying Christmas Day, I asked myself what would my dreams be if I were told I was dying..............catch up with that old friend, tell those I love how much they realy mean, want to sleep in my own bed and not a hospital, make tea in my own kitchen, wish I'd have worked less and spent more time with loved ones, wondered why I held a grudge with that 1 and only true friend, but most of all, why Did I waste years searching for that perfect mate???, when I could have found love in the Indian ocean, when i swam it for the first time, or the freezing alps when I knew what cold realy was, a life spent searching for a perfect love is a wasted life, Life is a gift, I hope I do it justice, and live it well:):)
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We are all on loan to each other, 'till God calls us home, I hope I teach my daughter to enjoy the gift that it is life until we are reunited in heaven, the best thing I can do for her is teach her to love herself, and respect those around her, my purpose was and is to be a good Mum.....
I can still hear your voice, all your expressions, that particular way you smiled when you spoke, your eyes???? what can I say, you'd get lost in them, I know I did, anytime I was lucky enough to look into them, I loved you so much, and I pushed you awy, you said it to me once, you said "jan, you have a man that loves you, why are you so insecure"??, I guess I always thought of how our love affair began, he was my boyfriend, I was 18, you were his friend, we didn't mean to feel anything, we did nothing, we were friends, I was always there for you, it was all I could do, we did was right,I'd get lost in your eyes but I'd look away, how many years did we pretend????, 1 day it became real, but you were locked away, and I visited and I visited and I loved you and I knes deep inside you you were a good man you never had a chance growing up, and I asked the judge to give you a chance and I believed in you, and before you ever got I became the insecure woman again, insecure of your love, of our past, we parted, you got out, you called, I ran you from the door, I'd put on weight, I didn't want you to see, how pathetic is that????, you asked for my number, I had changed it....I was on a cloud of I don't know what, thinkingwhen you saw me again I'd be looking out of this world, I kept pplaying my game.....and you were right my lovely John...my insecurities would ruin things, you died Christmas Day 2011, I will love you forever, all the times I pushed you away, all the times I got insecure, you have taught me something, don't be afraid to love, or be who I am, stop being suspicious and doing other peoples thinking......I'm gona try Johnm, I promise. I love you , I realy do........Your not my soulmate anymoreJ, your my angel..........Goodbye John....xxxxxxxxxxxx
Go raibh maith agat, go n-eirigh an bhothar leat a tusa fresin......Is bfheidir liom go mbeidh mo chroi ceart go leor in am, go raibh a mile maith agat..........Jan....x
I don't think anyone of my friends or family could have seperated feelings from logic and reality, considering the reality was he had been clean for over a year with no signs or indications of returning to heroin, he was not an intravaneous user, so nothing could have prepared us, for his untimely death........I am glad I can express my feelings......again, your opinion welcomed and respected, I trust you respect mine. Jan
Hi, he had been clean, he relapsed Christmas Day and died, I knew him and loved him 18 years, I would not have turned my back on him............I welcome your opinion. Jan
I can't believe your gone, was it destiny we spoke on the phone 2 weeks before you died??, heroin killed you....why???, we could have been so happy....I havn't stopped crying, and I am so confused, what happened???, you were clean, I visited, I put my life on hold, I always thought someday we'd sort it, I'll miss you forever John, R.I.P, I hope it's true, if you can't touch or see a soul then you can not destroy it, in an ironic way your death has made me realise I have to live, I alwaysthought you and I would be together again, your not coming back, I must move on, for the first time in ten years I decided to use the talents God gave me, I am in A poetry competition, well it was what I loved years ago, I will always love you John.......sweet dreams.....Jan...xxxxxxx
That is not what you said, you said money will attract more than looks and personality put together, you did not clarify that it was not a generalisation you were making, I take it into context now by your last post that that was an attempt to make the statement that you do not apply your belief to all women, and I am content with that, as I am sure a percentage of women would take offence to that, we are all not of the gold digger breed, that cling to their prey with relentless tenacity. Good evening to you, and thankyou for your opinion.
I have to disagree, if you said SOME WOMEN were attracted to 6 figures etc, fair enough, Personally, I've been in 2 serious relationships, both started out with a very strong physichal attraction, niether men worked, I take offence to the suggestion that I as a woman may be shallow enough to just want a man with money, personally no matter what the size of his bank balance, if I were not attracted to him I would not go near him.
I agree also about the profiles Carol, same profiles repeatedly, you'd almost wonder if they are the persons real interests, or just copied??, all so mechanical.
Okay, lets be honest, I know for myself when I was younger I was attracted to a man by what I saw, at times gradually turned off by the personality I saw unfolding around me, but even now I am on a dating site, here with the rest of yee on C.S, who can honestly say that they don't judge a person's profile????, What do you look for in a profile?, what instantly attracts you?, be honest.
I am seething right now at the Irish government, and their negative comments and generalisation of single parents..............Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, I am proud to be Irish, but ashamed of our Government. I am angry too at your story, complete ignorance these people have towards you and others that are in need and entitled to the disabled parking, knowing me and my temper, I would quite happily stick banana's in their exhausts and slash their tyres, they may think twice about where they park then.
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and slash their tyres, they may think twice about where they park then. 
, I thankyou for your welcome. Janice
RE: Name just one on CS you would date !!
Why myself, of course..........