I know they are like a secret society or what not but my Ex-boyfriend was a freemason and i had always been curious about what it was they do and he always told me to pretty much stay out of it. i just didnt know if anyone new anything about them. I see them in all types of movies such as the da vinci code, and mentioned in national treasure seems really interesting..
Yeah i think i might go into work early today and talk to one of the therapists... thank you all, i always get scared when i post these threads i dont want you guys to think of me like a cry baby... thanks
I do believe what she said about the depression i guess my Dad was paying for all of it. which is my angering because he never t old me where she was. I hired i PI to find her but got nothing back..
It's just getting to be too much right now. If i have all this now and i'm only 21 what is my life going to be at 30 or 40.
I am getting away i'm leaving for london on friday
I know what you guys are saying... I've thought about seeing councelors a lot of people the work at mywork have offered... But i guess i'm one of the types of people t hat try to just forget about it until something sets meoff and i start to feel all the hurt all over again.. but this new famillythat appeared outof no where isjust to much for me right now.. I'm sick of seeing her face every day.. which is kinda mean but i just need some space. I hate feeling like an emotional head case you guys must think i'm a loon.
Hey guys everthing in my life has been so crazy i just needed some people to be able to talk with.
Have you ever had the feeling that everything was ok (maybe not ok but you accepted it for what it was) and then something happened that just changed everything?
Well, a couple weeks ago my mother came back into my life. Which you'd think achild would be excited about. She left me a long time ago. We got into a car accident, she was drinking and driving and resulted in me in the hospital for a while, i was even in a coma. She left shortly afterwards which i thought was just a result of her guilt. But now that she is back she said she was at a place in michigan she was suffering from severe depression.
So after the accident i ended up moving to California, my dad made a life for us. My Dad, My older sister, my older brother, and I. I soon made a lot of friends out here and eventually i ended up meeting a great guy. We were together for a long time, then one day i found out i was pregnant. We were so excited it wasnt like a normal teen pregnancy we were trully happy. Well i was about 4 months a long when i was at toys r us picking out gifts for my baby shower. When i ended up collapsing with the most pain that i ever was faced with. I ended upp going tothe hospital to f ind out i had a miscarriage and later found out that from previous accident i was so severly scared that i wouldnt be able to carry for full term. So on top of my frustration o f my mother leaving me she was to blame for something that would effect me for the r est of my life.
I pretty much broke down at this point ended it w/ my BF, and just turned a way completly from everything and everyone. a while after i got involved w/ a nother guy that ended u p cheating on m e and completly breaking my heart. Which addedto the never ending pain.
Now that my mother is around i wanna like her and ina way that i do but i still blame her for so much. Now that she's back my dad tries to bring my ex- love of my life around. He'slike throwing him at me.
and after i accepted all that has happened now that she's back all these strong emotions are all coming back. Lately i've been up crying..
Hey guys our fantasy football team is starting up on JULY 30
If youwould like to sign up go to nfl.com when you get to the part that says pick your league scroll to the bottom and it will say search leagues and type in CS MEMBERS click join this league and it will ask you a password where you will type in loveorlust.
if she is in a level 4 at her age thats amazing, she must be excellent at gymnastics.
If she loves doing it i think you should let her it could be a great experience. Cheerleadings a lot different now, you can go places and even get scholarships.
I say go for it as long as she doesnt get burnt out..
Well, since my baby left me, I found a new place to dwell. It's down at the end of lonely street at Heartbreak Hotel.
You make me so lonely baby, I get so lonely, I get so lonely I could die.
And although it's always crowded, you still can find some room. Where broken hearted lovers do cry away their gloom.
You make me so lonely baby, I get so lonely, I get so lonely I could die.
Well, the Bell hop's tears keep flowin', and the desk clerk's dressed in black. Well they been so long on lonely street They ain't ever gonna look back.
You make me so lonely baby, I get so lonely, I get so lonely I could die.
Hey now, if your baby leaves you, and you got a tale to tell. Just take a walk down lonely street to Heartbreak Hotel.
Would you be content to see me crying After all those little games you put me through After all I've done for you you're lying Wouldn't it be nice to tell the truth
Didn't somebody somewhere say You're gonna take a fall I gave you everything Now here's the curtain call
Shot through the heart as I lay there alone In the dark through the heart It's all part of this game that we call love
Now you've come back here to say you're sorry But I don't know who you're talking to It could be the man I used to be, girl But I've grown up and now I'm over you
Standing there just a live wire With nowhere left to turn You were gonna set the world on fire When will you ever learn?
Didn't somebody somewhere say You're gonna take a fall I gave you everything Now here's the curtain call And I'm shot...
Baby does what baby please And baby must have what she sees But not this time, the tables turned Baby, you just got burned
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Freemasons
I'm just really curious but no one wants to talk about it.. Maybeall CS is freemasons and i just pissed them off..