An employee comes into to pick up his check once a week in my office.
He is 25 years old and I am 30 something. (He is cute but young.)
He calls one day and asks if I have had lunch because he would like to bring me something to eat. I decline politely.
He comes in the following week after lunchtime and asks if he could bring me ice cream. I decline again.
Next day he calls and asks if I would join him for lunch again. I again, decline. He calls and asks for personal advice on life decisions and career moves. Conversation is kept on the professional side by me. I wonder if he needs a friend. The front desk girls states he is hitting on me.
Thursday he calls and asks if he can take me to dinner. I finally accept. Friday night plans are made for dinner. He calls and states it is a casual dressed dinner which is fine by me. We meet and and sit down to dinner. Conversation is decent and we start discussing what kind of people we are interested in dating. Then out of the blue he asks me if I know of any cute, young, single girls at work! Wow! I am blown away by this. Has the dating world changed so much? Why would some one ask me out repeatedly and then when I finally accept, ask me something like that?
1. Make a noticeable difference in at least 1 human beings life. 2. Make amends. 3. Make my children proud. 4. Get it together. 5. Start over. 6. Read the directions. 7. Just jump. 8. Learn to let go. 9. Smell the roses, lilies, lilacs, pionies, ect.... 10.See the world!
March 7, 2007 Combustible feelings deep within rise to the surface and the nauseating memories flash through my mind. I am assaulted by all of my senses as I try to push and purge it all away. How can this happen after so many years away? How can this fear be never ending? Daily life goes on and not a soul realizes that the torture and beatings are replayed and revisited constantly in my head. Every day I just pretend. I am not paranoid, he is locked away but he will get out someday. The clock ticks and the days pass, but I wait for the next court date. March 7, 2007. Just 3 short months away. Seven years and 3 days ago, I walked, no ran away. I have been looking over my shoulder ever since that day. I lock the doors and windows in my car and in my house and then I check them again. I have moved 13 times since then. I am strong now but how quick he can make me weak. I am afraid to see him. Locked in the shackles with the guards standing by with pistols at their sides. All he needs is just one little peek. I will crumble to floor maybe I will just run for the door. He can't hurt me now. The police gave me a paper that says he has to stay away. I hope he reads it, I hope and pray.....
*** Thankfully he was denied parole this time. Next parole hearing is February 2008
I remember back in high school how I never fit in with the "clicks." I was shy and still am. I was not popular but had a few friends that did not quite really fit in either. I was so happy when my high school days were over! I found a whole new world when I went to college. It was more about what I thought then how popular I was or what brand name clothing I had or didn't have.
I read the forums but have found it is very easy to get verbally attacked here. I watch my opinions now and choose carefully what I post or respond too. I have a life away from the internet and have found that maybe others have more time than I do to sit and post for hours. (observation not a judgement) Other may not be as shy and have established relationships online (including platonic friendships) but I have not found a connection either romantic or platonic yet.
Some people say just jump in and go for it, don't be shy! That may be easy for some, but not for me. I have found this to be somewhat disheartening and is probably why I have had difficulty establishing relationships offline.
I have found that my honesty and candor has either offended or scared others. I have found that some posts are very "clicke" . So, I don't post. Some posts are very thought provoking but a reply may be meet with aggression when your opinion is not favorable.
I have heard that some have found true friendship online. I have not felt very much friendliness here. I have heard that some have found life partners, wives and husbands online. I have not even found a date here! I am looking for a connections. Not sure how possible that may be in this kind of environment. Does anyone else feel the same way? Is anyone else searching? Am I alone?
Maybe I truly don't want to be part of a "Click." Maybe I march to a different beat. Maybe I want more out of life than a computer keyboard and mouse. Maybe I am asking for too much.
Maybe I thought that I would find a connection at Connecting Singles...........
I woke up this morning! Always makes me happy! I have a roof over my head, a bed to sleep on, food in my fridge and a job to go to! I have family and friends that love me!
Life is good!
Now I just need to find someone to share all my happiness with!
I got an email stating that the father I had been looking for over the last 10 years had passed away. The email stated that he had left me (his only child) his estate. This person requested that I provide personal information in order to secure the over sea accounts and transfer the funds to me. My father was born in France. I thought since it was not public knowledge that I was my fathers daughter that this was legitimate. A friend of mine suggested that I contact a private investigator first. Thank goodness I did! I found out not only was my father still alive but that the company that sent me the email was from Nigeria and not really a company at all! This person even found my home phone # and left me a voice mail urgently requesting my personal info! I suspect they got me story from posting boards looking for missing persons!
Wanting to see a picture does not equate to shallowness always, yes some people are shallow. Empty profile and no picture may have some feeling uneasy but not because of shallowness. I want to see a connection either personality wise or physically. It is not about beauty for me. I could care less about traditional appearences, it is about connection for me. I want to look into someones eyes, yes first through a picture. I am not out into the bars searching for mr. beautiful. I loking for something deeper. Maybe this online thing is the wrong place, but I am taking my chances. I am not traditionally beautiful to some, but maybe someone out there will find my pictures beautiful to them. Life is about taking chances! Sometimes you meet the wrong person, sometimes you get hurt but if you live your life being afraid, you may loose out on someone who could rock your world! Good luck!
I post poetry here, not for negative critical judgement but as an expression. I agree not everyone may like it , some may not understand it, in fact some may hate it. But to have rude and negative comments would offend me. This post is offending. If you don't like reading the poetry here, check out a critical POETRY site. I am also a published poet. It does not make my work any better or worse than anyone else's. Not sure if you were intending to offend others or just came across that way. Something to think about because:
I think I would keep my hearing. Because I could always use my imagination to see, touch, smell or taste. Without communication or music I would go crazy!
Maybe it was a glimpse or glance A hint of a possible romance That brought me to tears and raised my fears When you looked at me like you could see my soul
Maybe it was the sly smile from the corner of your lips The emerald green eyes with diamond chips The turn of your head just to the side That made me hide When you looked at me like you could see my soul
Maybe when you walked by, just a little shy An angels face, no human could deny With flow so smooth like you were walking on air Made me start to care When you looked at me like you could see my soul
Maybe your fragrant scent of heaven and earth Triggered my spiritual rebirth And on a midsummer's eve I began to believe
You would look at me like you could see my soul.....
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Was he giving me mixed signals?
Here is the scenario:An employee comes into to pick up his check once a week in my office.
He is 25 years old and I am 30 something. (He is cute but young.)
He calls one day and asks if I have had lunch because he would like to bring me something to eat. I decline politely.
He comes in the following week after lunchtime and asks if he could bring me ice cream. I decline again.
Next day he calls and asks if I would join him for lunch again. I again, decline.
He calls and asks for personal advice on life decisions and career moves. Conversation is kept on the professional side by me. I wonder if he needs a friend. The front desk girls states he is hitting on me.
Thursday he calls and asks if he can take me to dinner. I finally accept. Friday night plans are made for dinner. He calls and states it is a casual dressed dinner which is fine by me. We meet and and sit down to dinner. Conversation is decent and we start discussing what kind of people we are interested in dating. Then out of the blue he asks me if I know of any cute, young, single girls at work!
Wow! I am blown away by this. Has the dating world changed so much? Why would some one ask me out repeatedly and then when I finally accept, ask me something like that?
Am I crazy? Did he send mixed signals?