My friends I am truly sorry but I must take my leave. This place was hers long before ever I set foot here. My presence causes her distress and alarm. I could never hurt her and will not even in this manner. I have lived a life of many hurts that I wished myself dead more than once. The hurt inside of me I believed gone through much work. I have tried my utmost best to be an upright person. I never treat others with hatred, but also am unwilling to witness the hurts of others. I appears now that others hurt in their own ways and these hurts colour their thoughts. They cannot be held to blame least of all by me as I have been dealing with and likely will always be dealing with this as well. Some hurts are just to deep to repair. I will miss many of you as well but this place really had little hold to draw me forth beyond curiosity I was never truly seeking anyone and have long ago decided to live my life alone. Sheer happenstance directed my attention and strength unknown to me bid me to reach out. What we shared will guide my heart for the rest of my life and I thank her and God for letting this happen. Twice bitten and I believed myself a fool to once again brave the lion's den, but my heart silenced my brain. Only to find out it cannot be. A hard lesson but somewhere therein lies the lesson which I will seek. I have no ill feelings for her, quite the opposite in truth. I will always love her as I know she was the one, but now that this is done I can at least rest in peace knowing that I at least touched the heaven's if for but a moment. The light from this wholesome, woman will guide my spirit to my Father in my days, and I will always see her face smiling down upon me in the moon and sun and stars. She will always remain in my heart. My friends here I will truly miss all of you for what you have done, been, and said throughout emails and postings. A dating site was never my intention when I came here as I really do wish to inflict myself upon others in such a way. You have blessed me with a new perspective, one I thought anathema to myself. I am just packing my things here and will be gone soon. I have no more witticisms or fool talk or such just a vast emptiness which none of you need share. I will heal but alone. I leave you with famous words from one of my favourite people:
"I don't know half of you, half as well as I should like, and I like less than half of you, half as well as you deserve."
I came here on a whim An accident of fate Prognosticated destiny? An evening much too late
A few laughs here and there Hesitation for its purpose Seeking without a care Just a way to pass the time
A wounded man’s soul Just dealing with his life No rhyme, no reason, no goal Communication and laughs
I never gave my heart With ease or frequency Too wary of pain to part Or lay it on the line
A single glance in your eyes And I knew you were the one Either my life or my demise Choices and consequences
With a risk I’ve never taken I reached out to embrace you Unyielding faith never shaken Bravery leading into the unknown
A whirlwind of expectation Neither known or evident Without a hitch or complication Solace, comfort and peace
Days and nights of joy and wonder Time passed by like leaves on the wind Fireworks that follow the sound of thunder A light-show that burst like the light of the sun
Dreams, desires, the road of life Perfection, acceptance, harmony Vitality, future, marriage, a wife Equality, Synchronicity, Forever
Accusations of being a player From hurts long done in the past After unveiling my heart’s every layer Shame from what she felt
Cold rebuttal of all I am Without hesitation or concern Fed to the lion as a lamb Innocence denied but for a word
The only tune I’ve ever played Is the song sung by your heart and soul The richest minstrel ever paid In harmonies gathered in heaven
Refusals to listen or talk it through Words frosted like breath in the storm Nothing but cold and all from you I have decided to leave and never return
I part with what I entered with here A broken heart and no desire for love I gave my soul to a woman without peer Wounded she cannot feel its warmth
I leave it with her just in case It’s beat and pulse can stir her veins While my head drifts aimlessly through space And time heals all wounds
Or so they say, but I fear the scars That it certainly leaves in its wake Burning my being like light from the stars I pray for her soul to finally be free
A woman like her deserves the best I am sorry what I offer is not enough I have offered her me, and all the rest I have nothing left to give
Wherever she may go in life Just know I Love you And would have called you wife I will always be waiting
I could never blame you in any way I love you and have done so From that very first day Until the last breath I draw
HJ is a prankster... a man of great depth of character and the means by which to divert our attention to this, until after the point.. then it all becomes clear as glass...
Morgan is the viewpoint often unheard. The tempering of reason. Compassion for all positions and people. In a world poulated with angels and devils she has clearly chosen her side and it looks good on her.
Daniel is my brother! A man without peer in his search for peace and harmony. The ultimate peace-keeper. A priceless treasure to whomever captures his heart.
Scottishlass is a dear heart. Warm and ever watchful for the sparks of delusion which she carefully stamps out and gathers to remove the stain of soot. A proverb in the making.
Trudy is the best friend I could have found here... so damn compassionate and all ears (not a remark on her physical ears for the naysayers or mudslingers cause they are fine just as they are...) Truly a blessing upon all who know her.
Has anyone ever bought something because of the marketing appeal or the packaging only to bring it home and either wish they had not bothered or just leave it on a shelf to rot? What we see is typically what our media dominated world has 'taught' us is what we should see. The depth of what is there porves itself after very little time and determines the 'value' we have for said object of our desires. Never judge a book by its cover... not just for literature...
Kev I am not indicating any such ideal as shallowness. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and there has to be some instant attraction. I know a few stunningly beautiful women who I am hard pressed to give the time of day to, and some whom would be perceived as common who would knock the proverbial socks off any man willing to take the time to just stop and inhale their inner beauty. We are creatures of our senses first and foremost but I feel that this approach has left many seeking far beyond what they need and truly desire. Society's obsessions have blinded us to many wonders before us. Pride holds deep to too many hearts and is a major tyrant in controlling the eyes and attempting to drive the heart. No one should settle for less that what they truly desire yet can we as a population quick to abandon what we have for the new, truly say that our current perception of what we need is working?
The confidence which exudes from a smile and the echo resounding in her eyes. Beyond this everything I seek is internal. Time changes all physical things and I would never seek to be drawn to something which is in an eternal state of change. Obviously there must be some physical appeal but I believe that the body is merely a vehicle, and I have seen some pretty awesome looking people step out of run down cars. A second glance at said world weary vehicle would likely not occur, but if the treasures inside were witnessed by all none of the women would be here seeking love.
The other five options matter little to me as my decision to seek more would have already been made based upon the above prerequisites. Plenty of time to feel out the rest if they remain an issue. I do not seek to engage in a furtherance of a relationship with a two dimensional photograph. I seek what is on the inside. The eyes are the gateway to the heart and soul and a healthy smile shows confidence. All good things but the depth of a person is the real draw for me. Love is blind and we could all learn from this by seeing the inside first....
For example: Let's say that through postings in forum or through personal e-mails I knew that a couple of girls were interested in Daniel but were too shy to approach him. I would write Daniel (2) Which would get Daniel (whom we are pretending is too shy to look for himself) to be curious enough to open lines of communication to seek out these people to perhaps find the love of his life.
So post like this:
Daniel (2)
Mark (need sleep am usually more coherent than this...)
markmeunier Forum Posts (912)
(need sleep am usually more coherent than this...)
To Whom It May Concern:
My friends I am truly sorry but I must take my leave. This place was hers long before ever I set foot here. My presence causes her distress and alarm. I could never hurt her and will not even in this manner.I have lived a life of many hurts that I wished myself dead more than once. The hurt inside of me I believed gone through much work. I have tried my utmost best to be an upright person. I never treat others with hatred, but also am unwilling to witness the hurts of others.
I appears now that others hurt in their own ways and these hurts colour their thoughts. They cannot be held to blame least of all by me as I have been dealing with and likely will always be dealing with this as well. Some hurts are just to deep to repair.
I will miss many of you as well but this place really had little hold to draw me forth beyond curiosity I was never truly seeking anyone and have long ago decided to live my life alone. Sheer happenstance directed my attention and strength unknown to me bid me to reach out. What we shared will guide my heart for the rest of my life and I thank her and God for letting this happen. Twice bitten and I believed myself a fool to once again brave the lion's den, but my heart silenced my brain. Only to find out it cannot be. A hard lesson but somewhere therein lies the lesson which I will seek. I have no ill feelings for her, quite the opposite in truth. I will always love her as I know she was the one, but now that this is done I can at least rest in peace knowing that I at least touched the heaven's if for but a moment. The light from this wholesome, woman will guide my spirit to my Father in my days, and I will always see her face smiling down upon me in the moon and sun and stars. She will always remain in my heart.
My friends here I will truly miss all of you for what you have done, been, and said throughout emails and postings.
A dating site was never my intention when I came here as I really do wish to inflict myself upon others in such a way. You have blessed me with a new perspective, one I thought anathema to myself.
I am just packing my things here and will be gone soon. I have no more witticisms or fool talk or such just a vast emptiness which none of you need share. I will heal but alone.
I leave you with famous words from one of my favourite people:
"I don't know half of you, half as well as I should like, and I like less than half of you, half as well as you deserve."
Thank you for everything.
Mark