You said it best! You love the memories of loving him! Like all things in life, it's important to give them a shape, a beginning and an end! He never said good bye...you never got to look at him, knowing it's for the last time.....it happens, but you can get over that! Prepare yourself to end him from your heart...and you will know when you are ready! Be ready to just say " you don't mean anything to me anymore" and the memory of him won't touch you! He can no longer touch you snuggs! You are the master of your life and nobody else can influence that unless you let them!
Sounds harsh... I know it's hard to let go when you didn't have a closure! I think when you're deeply involved, you really need to have the ending well defined, to be able to let it go, otherwise it's a long struggle with yourself.
I can relate to your case in a way ( many years ago,he ended a relationship and my heart was broken in so many pieces, I never thought I could mend it). I came out of it eventually but every once in a while I would go back to the memories and grief about him. Every once in a while I would reach out to him , although I knew what we had was gone. But I just couldn't break the connecting thread. Until I decided it's time to move on and let him stay in the past, locked forever....it happened to visit his city, I drove on his street and , there and then, decided that I'll let him go and move along with my life....and that was my closure!
It's not always happening as quick as you want it, rather it happens when you're ready, but you will get over him!
It doesn't matter how it sounds to others, what really matters is how you feel and how you deal with it! And the fact that you know you need to break away, means you will do it! Whenever you're ready!
Most of the times is the pictures that catches my attention , may it be the smile, the sparkle in the eyes, the pose... If I happen to read something intersting in the forums, that's a starter too. For me it's usually the " I don't know what" that gets me to the first step...later on, chemistry plays a big part and all the traits and values of the person...
The best things is to be mentally prepared to start the change.
I stopped without any help, just because I was planning and getting ready for the moment to stop. One week in my cigar "soberness" I burned my car engine and first thing I did: I asked for a cigarette.
Couple of weeks later I quit again, this time with Champix( after only 2 weeks of pills). Now I can't even stand the smell.
Ohhhh, how touched by your generosity!!!!! So willing to sacrifice for the benefit of others I am good, coming out of the winter, slowly, like the canadian bears
RE: whining, boo hoo, when will it end...
That's my favorite book!"Grown-ups never understand anything by themselves"