Wow I feel for you ,Merk has given a lot of herself in this thread to help you .Listen to her .
I am sorry you have issues around food . It can't be easy . However you could be doing a lot worse than comfort eating. Ok so you ate the third burger ,please don't beat yourself up about it, it may make you gorge altogether .
If you want to be another person ,by all means be ,but you are fine and IMO just need to acept the hand life has dealt you and move on.You are worthy of happiness .
Well I have been there with my Dads passing but whilst I was there when my late Mam was in the process of passing, I stayed out in the back garden as she passed away .
For me it was too painful to watch and I said after seeing my father pass that if I could help it ,that I wouldn't chose to see any other person pasing .
11 years later ,even though my fathers passing was peaceful and dignified I can recall how his face was as he passed . Very painful to watch. But we were all there till the end with him.But I just couldn't watch my Mam pass .
RE: Something Went Wrong
Now see how my reference helpedWell done Morgan