Then you should of has been, a dream patient of any student about getting his Diploma in Psychology. or Psychotherapy It seems you have ALL, what they are taught at Uni.
Some time my six sense tell me,to trust her CS mail,and after numerus exchange mails, my intuition is proven right. So far so good,though the time would come,where my intution it will prove me wrong.
Expecting honesty from people you chat with,is natural. Also natural is, to be cautiously optopmistic,as not all the people you chat with, wave or cover themselves with the flag of honesty.-
If you seek you have to meet. Doubts,expectations and hopes, will form in general at that first meeting. Sometimes,"i found her/him" rings bells at the first meeting, Other times decision making,for various reasons takes longer. But the bells they are there,ringing different tunes., according to our expectasions.
RE: Big difference in age - for and against
Macron (Frence president) and his much older wife,are a very Happy couple.Unless you see on them your (""False and Unnatural),