The fights, those nights I tried to pretend it don't hurt The way, I prayed Someday that you would love me Really, completely Just how I wanted it to be But no, so wrong Can't believe I stayed with you so long
You hit, you spit, you split, ever-y bit of me, yeah You stole, you broke, you're cold You're such a joke to me, yeah
For every last bruise you gave me For every time I sat in tears For the million ways you hurt me I just wanna tell you this You broke my world, made me strong Thank you Messed up my dreams, made me strong Thank you
My head, near dead Just the way you wanted it My soul, stone cold Cos I was under your control So young, so dumb Knew just how to make me succumb But I un-derstand To make yourself feel like a man
You hit, you spit, you split, ever-y bit of me, yeah You stole, you broke, you're cold You're such a joke to me, yeah
For every last bruise you gave me For every time I sat in tears For the million ways you hurt me I just wanna tell you this You broke my world, made me strong Thank you Messed up my dreams, made me strong Thank you
You coulda had it all babe It coulda been so right I woulda given you everything Morning through night Yeah, you taught me some lessons Those are my blessings That won't happen again
So she can't bend down to cut them herself.. maybe can't afford for a Chiropodist to come and cut them.. maybe no one wants to do it FOR her.. maybe there IS no on TO do it for her.
When people get older.. they often find it VERY hard to look after themselves. You'll see what I mean one day.
I just re pasting this 'new update' so no one has to roll back throo the posts.
Arrrghh!.. I've been trying to avoid thinking about this all morning (hence the playing about on the threads)...
My best friend Trish.. 'liver cancer lady'.. (thats her on my profile with me)
(Please read the first post if you want a quick catch up)
Anyhoooo..
She has been to the cancer clinic now.. (yesterday Friday)...
She called me in floods of tears last night.. (She is a VERY strong feisty stubborn woman)
Telling me that she had gone for her appointment with husband and her sister (a nurse)
She says that the doctor has told her that it is a primary cancer, and that it is VERY aggressive and moving much faster than they could have anticipated.
near the end of October (when they discovered a 'mass') it was 7cm big. (already too big for some treatments)..
in the last week of December it was two thirds of the size of her liver.
and yesterday.. (Jan 11th) I forgot what she said (I was too busy crying).. but it's even bigger again.
It is now in it's 'advanced stages' and it has now also spread to her Lymph nodes. thumbs down thumbs down
They said the type of cancer she says is normally seen in Asia (and somewhere else, I forget now).. usually effects more men than women.. Heavy drinkers.. often seen in people with Hep C and/or Cirrhosis of the liver. (apparently)
None of which apply to her. blues
They say because it has spread to her lymph nodes there is no longer the option of a liver transplant. (as it will only still be around in the nodes)
Her husband asked.. what the success of surviving was..
and the doctor said.. 'It's very poor' blues
They said if she were older they wouldn't really be trying anything now..
But they are going to try on on big doses of Chemo .. with the possibility of shrinking away enuff past the main veins of the liver.. enuff to cut it OFF. (but they say it's a very small chance) although they have suggested that they may try out some new treatments on her.. a la guinea pig.
She has a *Team meeting* on this Tuesday 15th coming.. and her first course of Chemotherapy on the 22nd. (THREE F*CKING MONTHS After all the initial tests!!) She says she already feels so ill.. and that she can't stop crying.. neither can her husband . mum.. and sisters. (she is ALWAYS the strong one in a *Situation*)
She said on the drive home in the car her husband started to cry and couldn't stop..
She says she had to beg him too.. because SHE needed to cry instead and needed him now.
Anywayy.. I don't even know what to say.. I'm stunned and devastated (and yes.. I will be going over as soon as she needs me)
Thats for everyone who has so kindly cared to know what was happening. Thank you! Oo hey! and I told her (last time) about this thread and good wishes and prays.. and she was/is so grateful.
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