ekself Poetry (1)

I am paralyzed by fear
My mind stops thinking
My body stops reacting
Days go by without me noticing
I eat, I sleep, I read and sometimes I cry
I do nothing for hours, for days
I sing a song without words
Over and over to blog out thoughts
There is no one to help me
No God, no friend, no family
There never was and never will be
I am completely alone
I know I cannot do it
It is too big for me to do alone
It is too heavy for me to carry

But you are here
Deep inside me waiting for me
To surrender, to believe, to trust
My nameless, formless companion
Without ego, without needs, demands or fear
In the stillness where I stop existing
My awareness finds you waiting
To be awaken in every cell of my body
Filling it with pure love and healing energy
Then I know once again
I am safe, I am strong, I am infinite
Without limits or borders
Nothing can damage, hurt or destroy me
Fear and pain do not exist
You are I and I am you
Infinitely great and indestructible
As God of men can never be.